Re: anxiety and fears worse since losing my dad
First of all, I'm very sorry about your loss. I lost my Dad in June and I had a similar experience. My anxiety, mainly health anxiety, was through the roof. My therapist explained to me that when you have really difficult times, such as the death of a loved one, your mind sometimes jumps to doing what it does best, which in our case is create worries and anxiety. It's kind of like it goes into this mode to distract you. I felt a little better when she explained it to me that way. I didn't thoroughly understand why my mind would do that to me, but just knowing that it was very common and actually kind of expected was a comfort. Please know that it does get better. It's hard enough to lose someone you love so much without having to deal with this terrible anxiety. Remember that there's no correct way to grieve. Everyone deals with loss differently. Part of the way you're dealing with it is to feel some heightened anxiety. Take care of yourself during this difficut time and have faith that your mind is doing what it needs to do to work through this. There is a light at the end of the tunnel. Grieving is a process and you'll start to have better days soon.
I really hope this helps even a little.