Please Help I think I am dying
I am fromt he UK and have suffered with anxiety for years, I never go out to see anyone, work all day at home, feel like I am dying all the time and the list goes on.
In March this year i went to the Doctors with a chest infection and the GP I was seen by suggested I had HIV. Well I ran out of the office and stressed for 3 weeks before getting the test which thankgod was negative.
However since then I have had this feeling that I am dying, a few weeks ago I had a little blood on the loo paper after a bowel motion, so I went to see my normal GP and she said piles and gave me something for it. Then about 3 days after this I strained on the loo and loads of blood come out. So I called my GP and she has referred me to the hospital for a camera up my bum. I am going tomorrow and I am so worried, convinced they will find cancer.
To add fuel to the fire my periods since March have been starting early by two weeks sometimes, have become very heavy and I have sometime being having a little brown discharge before and after my period. So I thought I'd better see a doctor and when I went I had to see the GP how said I had AIDS/HIV.
She did an internal and said my womb felt weird and she was being careful and is sending me for a pelvic ultra sound. In the meantime all the swabs she took, along with a pap have come back normal and she has wrote to me asking me to go and see her on the 12th october. I am cracking up and my life is coming to a stand still, I'm sure this doctor is trying to fidn something up with me, as I havn't even had the appointment through yet for the ultrasound.
Today I brought a heart rate monitor, god knows why, I knew it was a bad idea. Anyway my average heart rate whilst sitting typing on the computer or building a website is around 90 - 97bpm and if I do anything it goes up to 114. I am now convinced I will not make it to the hospital tomorrow for my bowel investigation.
Does anybody think my heart rate is elevated due to my worry or do you all think I have a heart problem.
I was so fit and active in march, now I am scared to workout and walk my dog alone, incase I drop dpwn dead. Which I know is silly, because if I drop down dead nobody can help me anyway.
Please take this post seriously as I am so scared, i can't do anything, I think I have womb cancer, bowel cancer and a heart problem, I just want all my tests to come back good and then try some tablets as I am sick of this circle I am stuck in.
I am 30 year old female and take diazipam for my panick attacks and anxiety. I am trying to change with susan jeffers, louise hay and emotional freedon therapy but nothing is helping and I am trying so hard.
Thanks melly xx