Depersonalization???PLEASE HELP ME - Anxiety Message Board

anxiety_1234 · 11-07-2006, 10:33 PM

Hey Everyone...
SO lately..well for the past 3 months..I havnt been able to describe to anyone..not even docotors how I have been feeling. Really out of it..quesitoning life..questioning people..everything. Then I read an artical on depersonalization and it fit how i'm feeling to the T. Everything was right. Now I feel like..oh great..on top of anxiety i have depersonalization..am i crazy now? Is this just a symptom of anxiety? anyone else ever get it? i'm taking zoloft..have been for about a year and a half..just recently upped the dosage..i just dont understand why this is happeneing. PLEASE I NEED REASSURANCE!!!

shaunsgrl · 11-07-2006, 10:44 PM

Oh, thank God...I was just trying to describe this to my fiance. It just feels like I want to jump out of my skin. It's undescribable...I'll be looking at something, but I can't really focus on it. I just feel like I want to rip my hair out. I sit and I cry on a daily basis because I can't describe to anyone how I'm feeling and I start to feel crazy. I actually thought about checking myself into a mental hospital. This depersonalization has been so bad for the past two days. Every time I stand up, I feel like I'm going to pass out. Everything is in such a fog...someone will be talking to me for like 5 minutes before I even realize it.

anxiety_1234 · 11-07-2006, 10:55 PM

Yes that is exactly it...your in a fog..people are talking to yuo but you dont really register it..you force yourself to talk back but it feels like an effort..i cant take it anymore. lol i thought about checking myself into a mental hospital too. haha. i guess its when you get really bad anxiety..but mine has been here for a realyl long time. I dont know. Best of luck to you. just feels nice to know somebody else feels this way.!

JB68711 · 11-08-2006, 12:29 AM

Hey... I know exactly what you are going through. Depersonalization started with me back in June, and I had no idea of what was going on... what this feeling was, why I was feeling this way. It would happen mostly when I went out with people, in social situations. My mind would start to go blank, and I would become so "out of it". People even told me I looked out of it, which didn't help much. When people would talk to me... I couldn't concentrate on what they were saying. I could hear what they were saying, but it was hard for my mind to process it and respond like I normally would. I would even start feeling really tired.
I would just become really detached from everything and stare off. It felt like there was this barrier between me and everybody else, and I just couldn't interact. Everything just felt different. My mind would start to race with thoughts... but at the same time it was blank. I would constantly get this urgent feeling that I NEED to leave.
My thinking became different too... just the way I would think about things, and I hated it. Like you said, I would constantly question life, people, conversations, the POINT of everything. I just felt like nothing had a purpose.
I went through this for about 4 months not knowing what it was... and like you both said, it's the hardest thing to explain to anybody... no one would ever really know what I was talking about. Finally I came across the term and was just amazed... it really is an indescribable feeling when you read about it and realize that that's what you've been trying to say all along. Especially because when I tried to explain it, I would be at a loss of words... wouldn't know how to describe it. All of a sudden I'm reading it, and it's everything I've been trying to say.
Anyway, mine went away probably about a week after I figured out what it was. I don't know exactly how it went away. Now when I go out, I don't feel that barrier anymore or "the fog"... but I still feel like I don't have anything to say, I still feel boring. All my feelings are just dull, and I still have problems connecting with people. I still have anxiety and I'm going on medication soon. Hopefully that will help with all this leftover stuff.

Sorry my post was so long... but I know it helps to read that other people go through these feelings too. Best of luck to you... and remember, it is a symptom of anxiety.

j2006 · 11-08-2006, 06:16 AM

I suffer from this as well. It has gotten better since I started the Linden Method. The fog is awful but will get better. It has gotten better in the past day or so.

Depersonalization is part of anxiety. You can't have it without anxiety.(from what I am told). You need to put your focus on something else, like a craft or hobby and once you start focusing on that particular thing it will start to go. It takes alot of practice and time. I picked up knitting; you need to count and pay attention. Meditation and visualization tapes help me for sure. I do this twice a day.