Hello, I am struggling to cope with Social Anxiety Disorder, Agoraphobia whatever you wanna call it. Basically i never feel at ease unless i am alone. I also have been diagnosed major depressive. It is hell i feel like i am trapt.

I lost my job 6 weeks ago due to excessive Personal Time Off. Now i am stuck living at my moms house, where i am constantly asked how do you feel every 5 min by someone in my family. I have been to my psychiatrist a few times last time i was given 10 xanax xr 1 mg, and told to take 1 each morning. Well i was taking 2 each day so i am out now and feel like a nervous wreck. He only gave me 10 of them and they lasted about 5 days. I called my DR and they said they wouldnt refill script, and that we needed to talk about this next time i come in. My question is i have had some problems with substance abuse, but i truly feel that was caused by anxiety/depression. My mom says that i shouldnt take Xanax cuse i am just medicating my feelings. I feel that i should be prescribed them because it puts me more in touch with how i feel, provides relief from the horrid hellish Anxiety, and i dont think i should have to suffer the way i am when Xanax could provide temporary relief until i can get to the bottom of my issues. Also my Dr says i shouldnt be working, but i have a car payment, and a few grand in credit card debts, I dont want to ruin my credit and lose my car when i think the relief xanax provides would allow me to at least work some job while i work through my issues, and also i have no health insurance.
What does everyone think? Please give me some replies because i would like to print this out and take it with me tommorow when i go see my doc. Thank You Very Much for Opinions.