Re: Anxiety over "Good" Things
I completely know what you are feeling. I do the same thing. I also got laid off last August, and luckily my husband just landed a job making twice what he did before so this enabled me not to work. He is really wonderful and I have a great 4 year old, a very respectful, wonderful stepdaughter that lives with us and I felt as if since things were good that something bad was going to happen. I also lost my mom in January, the 31st and it has not been an easy road. I often think of her and it hurts me so much. Then when I am doing okay and I am not thinking of her every moment, it makes me feel guilty.
You will be fine, nothing bad will happen to you, you have to keep telling yourself that. I know I do. Sometimes it works and sometimes it doesn't. Just like that little girl Vada on My Girl, she imagined she had every disease each person would come to her father's mortuary with. Or What About Bob, if he pretended he had the ailment, then he doesn't really have it. I have often felt as crazy as that but trust me, it is just the anxiety and you WILL regain composure in your life. This message board is a wonderful outlet for letting go of bottled up feelings and fears and it really does work for me, I hope it does for you too. In fact, most of the time when I am feeling anxiety I come on here, read others posts, and it makes me feel so much better just to know that others feel the same way I do. It makes me feel not so strange.
God Bless you and I will be sending good thoughts your way that you will find a calm balance in your life and enjoy what life has to offer instead of feeling guilty that you have good in your life that you don't feel you deserve. You DO deserve it, so do I, we all do!
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