Whats wrong with me? - Anxiety Message Board

Zitful Delight · 07-03-2007, 07:04 PM

hello all, im a 1* year old boy and the past 3 months have been pretty much hell..

well here it goes, for 3 months now i havent felt like myself. best way to put it right there, i have been so confused and scared about life, the human body, my worries have pretty much taken over my life. i know this isnt normal and its really hard for me to explain this but i'll try, here are my symptoms, i feel dreamy like most of the time, like everything around me isnt happening or like i dont beleive where i am, not all the time though sometimes i feel alright, but thats not the case 80% of the time. i get these feelings like im not in my body or that things just dont make sense, like i was walking back from the basketball court one day and i started thinking "how do my legs work?? am i really controling my legs?? also when im sitting all alone i start wondering about the human body and thinking about breathing and i wonder what if i forget how to breathe?? it sounds stupid i know, but this really makes me panicky when i think about these normal everyday things like breathing moving your legs, sometimes i question life and wonder if i really exist and i start thinking , is this really me?? have i been on this world for 1*years?? i feel like sometimes when i think about memories that i wasnt there, i was just observing things happen, i start thinking about my eyes and i wonder what if i go blind? how do my eyes work??? am i working them?? gah......this might sound weird and i dont blame you if you cant compare...i just hate feeling like this, when i do start over analyzing things like this i get really anxious and panicky and i think i suffer from panic attacks, i dont know i just cant type out all of my feelings...there are so many things that make me scared and on top of this i feel dreamy like all the time and fearful that i will die or lose control of my body....sorry if this is long but i just had to say it...i think i need a shriink, i know i hate living like this scared all the time, afraid to leave my house, i was so pumped a couple months ago for the summer to get a job and make some cash but now im at home all the time asleep until 2, 3 in the afternoon...i dont know if i can handle going back to school in a couple months..what would a therapist do for me...im scared he will think im insane sorry for the length

ozinpanic · 07-03-2007, 10:51 PM

you have to remember that these are just thoughts. You are fearing your thoughts that's it. When you think good or bad thoughts chemicals are released into your system. Unfortunately at the moment you are thinking negative, fearful thoughts therefore cortisol (stress hormone) is being released and it builds up until your nervous system is exhausted. You MUST counteract these thoughts with positive ones. Don't analyze, don't dwell ... there is nothing wrong with you other than what you think is wrong with you. Your first step is to see a GP to totally negate anything physical is wrong with you. Try relaxing, meditating is a great way of learning to allow your thoughts just to float past without reacting to them. Your reaction is causing you to fear - don't react and enough with the negative thoughts these are just adding fuel to the fire - cortisol to your panic.

3wilds · 08-10-2007, 03:58 PM

I can relate because I had similar experiences when I was a teenager. You need to face your fears now because otherwise you will be prone to drug and alochol abuse to calm your anxiety and this will set you up for more problems later in life like I have and you don't want that. Even if just talking to a counselor would make you feel better I hope you do it. You can keep it discrete and I recommend this way rather than trusting a friend because if you don't have really good friends someone could hold something against you so its better to talk to someone who doesn;t know you and if therapy is recommended I'd suggest you do that if you can. Remember how you handle this might influence your life latter so take the time to think about it. I had no advice when I was young and I didn't make the right choices so thats why I'm sending you my reply. Think about it carefully and talking helps alot more than you might think, good luck.