mind games and anxiety?
lets see, just to give some history, i have had anxiety my whole life even when i was too young toknow i was having anxiety problems. just last year i was in this anxiety wheel and couldnt snap out of it i guess, i have all the classic anxiety worry, ocd, attacks, etc. one night about a year ago i somehow got it in my head i was gonna die at 19, (i am turning 19 in a week now), it scared me so much and i started watching this movie and it had a girl in there who doed at 19 and i freaked. and just recently i started seeing the number 19 everywhere, on the clock mostly and other places also...i see it everyday and now my anxiety is starting to come back espically since i turn 19 in a week now. i know this could sound so dumb to someone else but to me its real and scary. could i just be sort of 'looking' for this number or what. i dont want to start this anxiety wheel again i just broke it. it seems i get anxiety when i'm under stress and i have been, i just started beauty school for skin and its overwhelming and i'm almost 4 months pregnant too. i really would like to know it anyone can relate or give advice, i feel worried and stressed about everyhing and i want to cry alot. any advice would help thanks