princesscol

So yesterday I broke up with this guy that I have been seeing for 6 months. He has liked me for about a year before I even gave him a chance so he has been in my life for kind of a long time now. My problem is that my anxiety is so bad lately that it's ruining us hanging out because I don't want to go out or do anything and I can't eat because I feel like my throat is closing and I always can't breath and I'm sick of explaining it to him or looking like an idiot because I can't breath. He doesn't think I'm an idiot that's just how I see myself. I'm going on medication very soon (with in the next 3 weeks) and I'm just wondering if anyone has ever been in that situation. He's a really great guy (actually the nicest guy i've ever met... in my life!) but I'm scared the medication is going to somehow change me or my personality and I just don't want to put him through that. I already argue with him because I'm moody. Poor guy really doesn't do anything to upset me I'm just so self-concious and always taking everything personal. Can a person be in a relationship and get help whether it be with medication or with therapy? Can the relationship last or did I make the right decision by breaking up with him? Please help

p.s. I know that he's a great guy and he said he's completely behind me 100% but I just feel like I'm going to ruin our relationship with this stupid anxiety. I just feel like he should be with someone normal and I shouldn't hold him back.