Looking for some possible guidance...
Hi, I am kinda new to the boards so bear with me if this isnt the correct place. For starters, I am 17 years old.
When I was 12 I had my first panic attack, I shook violently, sweat continuously, hyperventilated, and clenched my fists hard enough to fracture 3 of the smaller bones in the upper parts of my fingers. I was "diagnosed" with serious clinical depression and anxiety, and until recently I was medicated for depression regularly.I am 3 months without the use of anti depressant drugs (prescribed), and about 2 months without smoking.
My problem is very complex and hard to explain in text (ill try), but I decided to clean up my life due to sexual problems (performance/ED). My sexual performance has gone up a little bit since then..... But my real problem is that my anxiety is still very intense... I have panic attacks often, I get violent very easy.... I have nightmares every night, and have for about 2 months.. which in turn makes me average in at about 4 hours of sleep nightly.... I have a hard time determining whether my nightmares actually happened, or were just a dream... I sometimes feel like I wake up in the middle of driving or a busy day... and when that happens I dont understand where I am, or how I got their for minutes. When I have panic attacks, it is much more like a black out afterwards... I get bad chest pains and usually fall asleep within minutes, and I have a hard time talking to people because I keep thinking that they are going to insult me or hurt me. Most of the times I understand that those kinds of things dont happen regularly, and it isnt something I should always be waiting for... but when I go into this "mode" so-to-speak... I just dont think logically until after I have time to sit down and concentrate, but even after that I am still confused for a long time.
I cannot talk to either parents about these things.... my close family (grandparents, parents, uncles, aunts, brothers) has alot of serious mental disorders in it, so when someone says they are having problems like these... people get overly worried... I dont want to cause that kind of panic.... But most of all, I want to be confident that I can work through these problems... on my own... without any medicine from a doctor..
Has anyone had these kinds of problems, or better yet- successfully overcome them without meds? Any help at all would be greatly appreciated... I am sorry if this post was to long/misplaced, but this looked like the best place to me.
I will try to read/respond as soon as possible... thank you.
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