| Re: Freaking
I thought i was dying the past few weeks. Ok now i really know for a fact i'm insane. For what seemed like the past 4 weeks i had this pain behind my knee, didn't feel like a sprain or a tear or anything. I got worried when it wouldn't go away. I came on here and read up on the other boards and got into my head that maybe it's a blood clot/cancer, you name it! So after 4 weeks with this and even though i haven't been able to find another doctor in my area yet who take my insurance ( since the one i was seeing stopped taking it) i decided to make an appointment with my old doctor from years ago and just pay for the visit.
He checked me out, looking for what he called a bakers cyst and a bunch of other things. I kept brining up all these symptoms, numbness in my arms and legs started a few days ago and i was starting to feel pains in my heart and liver/kidneys. he really seemed to think everything was fine, i even brought up getting blood work, but he said he didn't think it was neccesary and didn't think it could be a blood clot. I really felt like he wasn't taking the time to listen to me and wasn't really checking my leg fully ( but then again thats what it's like being a hypochondriac) LOL i told him i had anxiety and that probably made him think thats why i was all neurotic. I was sooo worried though the past few weeks! i KNOW i felt that pain. The numbness would happen when i would wake up and sometimes out of nowhere throughout the day. Even the doctor said the numbness was something i was bringing on myself from worrying and looking for even more symptoms.
Now you know whats funny? today after hearing it was nothing i have NO SYMPTOMS whatsoever! LOL no wonder he gave me a card for a psychotherapist when i left! although he did give me one for an orthopedic/sports medicine guy, but i probably wont need to be seeing him. I even thought i was feeling pains in my brain from this. Just goes to show you how powerful the human brain really is to make all those symptoms and pains show up if you think about them enough. I mean, i know the pains were there, but i'm sure i made myself think they were ten times worse then they really were. Plus i was tense all the time worrying about them, especially in bed.
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