I'm not siurwe what to say here, I think I am sorta feeling panicky, so I might not be as eloquent as I would like to be right now.
I've got a bunch of stuff with OCD/anxiety and PTSD that I won't go into right now.
My point is, or my question rather, is that I am expereincing a feeling right now that I get from time to time, a feeling that I forget what it's like until ti resurfaces.
It's this feeling I get, which is usualy percipitated by fatigue, if I am very tiered, or-- sometimes, if I have a hangover and didnlt get accurate rest--
Anyways, I know I'm not making sense, but it's just this general feeling of depression/jitteriness that comes out of nowhere, and I can;t shake it!!!
It's compounded by the fact that I feel really tiered and lonely at night, and it is sort of a haunting feeling becuase I feel very sad, and very physically tiered, but instead of beign relaxed and just goig to be bed, my anxiety level jumps, and I can;t rest, or even sit still really without getting this sad/empty feeling, which is immediately met with anxiety, and the cycle goes like this until I can finally calm down enough to got bed.
wHAT is this?? It feels like a ball of anxiety and depression, and I don;t know what to call ti or do about it!!