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Hi

was supposed to start brilliant new job a few weeks ago, I had what I believe may have been a panic/anxiety attack. The result of this is that I did not even start the job and effectively lost it before I began. This has had a dramatically frightening effect on me which has forced me to focus on other panic / anxiety attacks that have interefered with my life for probably over thirty years now. Something is obviously wrong here, I dont know what, and I have been busy on the internet trying to get some answers.

I believe that I may be suffering from PTSD, I really dont know. Let me explain.

I had the most horrific childhood, both parents especially my Mother were extremely violent towards each other, my earliest memories are from about four years of age and vivid memories of violence between my parents. The police were often involved, it was so serious. I had to learn to call the police from an early age. The violence stopped when my father died when I was aged 17. He was seperated from my mother at the time and living in another house. I also now believe that my mother has been an un diagnosed paranoid schizophrenic all her life, and this has destroyed our family completely. I have another brother that was institutionalised for years he is now pretty ok but cannot come near his mother as her negativity will only destroy him.

I wont bore you anymore with the sordid details before and after my fathers death.

Is it possible that because of this childhood that I am now suffering from PTSD, I am now 47 and so panicy and anxious, I cannot even bear to answer phone, or even listen to messages on mobile. I am going to GP this evening, to discuss options. Well thats the story, if you read this, thank you. Hope someone can relate to this and advise.