I am 19 yrs old and i suffer from severe anxiety, it started last year a few months after my brother in law age 23 died due to a car crash, it just opened my eyes and realized it doesnt matter how young you are anything can take your life in a flash of a light! I just recently went to the doctors last week for some medication to take and i ran into another problem, I'm to scared to take it beacause i read the side effect up down and all around, I'm scared im gonna end up having one of the worst side effects to it, while im at home alone with my 3 yr old daughter!
I feel like im losing my mind sometimes, It's hard to fall asleep at night because i wake up in panic and fear sweating and wanting to call the ambulance because i think im having a heart attack or i think if i go to sleep im going to die! My husband barely sleeps at night because he tries not to fall asleep until I do, but he doesnt realize I am in huge fear!!! I try to tell him that beacause im lacking of sleep doesnt mean he has to and that when i get the courage to go to bed i will be in there, but he just says that he cant sleep unless im in the bed, well when i do go in there with him he wont fall asleep until i do, He just makes it so hard on me and i try to tell him in the best way i can but nooooo I just have to be in the bed!
I've tried to talk to <PEOPLE> about it but 9 out of 10 times it gets blowed off and i get told im alright and im not gonna die and to pretty much get over it! My husband is very supportive and he'll hold me and tell me everything is gonna be alright! I just wanna cry because i feel like my time is running out with my family and my life is gonna end soon! I'm left at the house all day long while my husband is at work, left in fear all day long till he gets home and im fine for a few hours!
I'm not on any medication for this and my poor husband gets snapped at all the time <BECAUSE> im always anxious and worried, the smallest thing just sets me off on him! He tells me theres no reason for me to get moody with him and i feel so bad afterwards and i try to explain to him how im feeling but still i dont think he understands fully! I felt like nobody understood and i felt alone until i ran into this site last night about 2 o clock in the morning!
I signed up hoping to get some advice on how to quit snapping at my husband all the time and quit thinking im gonna gonna drop dead due to a brain tumor or a heart attack or quit breathing, i know im young and im healthy but this is getting incredibly worse as time goes on!!! Im always irritated with every one, ive even quit hanging out with friends beacause they annoy me when im trippin out! i literally dont have any at all!
Im just scared of everything so if anybody has any advice could you please help!!! Its so major i feel like im losing control of my life!!!
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