I love this site due to the common bond that we all have with each other, its nice to know that I am not the only one who goes thru it and in a small sense it puts me at ease and helps me to function
I will tell you a little about my history maybe this will help you.My panic attacks started when I was 21, or at least thats when I was diagnosed with anxiety I think it started way before that possibly when I was 16 and my mom passed away. After my mom passed I was terrified that I was going to end up sick like her, or that I would die at a young age, thats when I think the anxiety started. Any little thing that happened sickness wise from a cold to stomach bug I worried about it. I had myself convinced that I was going to get really sick and die.
Well, my first attack happened and I literally felt as if I was dying I felt like I was blacking out almost even tho I wasnt, I got dizzy, had extreme pressure (almost like my head was foggy, and it felt like the top and front of my head was tingling, I went numb, had a rapid heartbeat/pulse and felt as if my airway was closing) I didnt know what was going on so I rushed to the ER, well I was given meds, paxil I believe, I took it and decided I was not going to be on anything I could calm myself down. Woah, was I wrong! I was ok for about a year or so and then they hit me big time! I could literally not function. I tried everything from only being around familiar >PEOPLE>/things, listening to soft music to soothe me, and then it got to the point to where I had to have someone in the room with me in order for me to go to sleep and even then I would wake up in a panic.
It would scare me so bad I would drive myself to the ER no matter what time or what mental state I was in, I guess you could say I became a frequent flyer.well, when I came to terms that it was the devil ( I am a christian) trying to bring me down along with accepting that it was anxiety , I agreed to be put on Zoloft,I was on 50 mg for 2 years, decided to take myself off(not a good idea, always consult your dr.)went approx. 2 years panic free, and here as of late have been suffering from it again, I am back on Zoloft and praying that it takes its affect soon, which it will, but it takes a while. I am on 1 mg ativan until I can get it under control.
Some things that help me not to think about the panic are: watching cartoons(childish maybe, but comforting), listening to soft music while I go to sleep(still wake up in panic, but to go to sleep it helps), I try to play games that use intellegence(word games, something that makes you think and takes your mind off of the bad stuff) and being around someone that you love helps to, my fiance has been great with helping me thru the attacks, from rubbing my back or feet or just holding my hand and using soothing words.
Best of luck and if anyone else reads this, give me some feedback . It helps to console me during the rough times