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Old 06-20-2008, 11:43 AM   #1
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My anxiety seems to manifest itself into hypochondriac like symptoms. It always has, ever since I was little. I always think there is something wrong with me. Even though I am a healthy 27 year old who takes care of herself. I feel so stupid even talking about this, but I feel like its taking control of my life. Does anyone else have this problem?

I obsess over health issues for hours/days/months, whatever is its at that moment.
Symptoms seem to manifest on their own. I read about something and then all of a sudden I think I have it and start feeling the symptoms.

I guess I am looking for people who have similar anxiety. I know anxiety can come out in different ways, and I guess this is just the way mine comes out.

I am just sick of living my life like this.

Any advice/suggestions/comments would be greatly helpful.

 
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Old 06-20-2008, 12:45 PM   #2
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Hi I am struggling also, I have so many things going on now it would take me an hour just to type it all. your not alone at all. Many of us who have anxiety disorder feel the same way. I only had anxiety for a year and I can't imagine it lasting forever. Although it feels like forever. I'm fighting a new battle along with my anxiety, I have constant dizziness, not a normal dizzy it's like my equilibrium is off and I feel pulled , my head feels heavy my body feels like it's going the wrong way. it's just crazy. Along with that I always think I'm gonna have a stroke or something. I think this is the day I'm gonna die. I've had this dizziness for about 5 months and I had every test done I mean everyone. So I know I don't have a brain tumor or heart problems, in fact I'm real healthy. Anyhow is the last 5 months I would just stay in bed and think this dizziness is never going away. OMG I have to live like this, I would cry have panic attacks you name it. But after all this time I realized there is no reason for me to die at this time atleaste health wise and I better get up and try to fix this problem. I did last week i got up and said screw it I gotta fight this stuff. I've been on xanax for a year, but decided to wean myself off and that started over a week ago, already i feel a little better, I also started to clean my house and attempt to do other things take a walk, go to physical therapy for my dizzy problem and do some yard work. I had to keep my mind off of the panic and my dizzy problem. Cause when you sit a stew about it it only gets worse, much worse. I felt like i had a case of the flu I thought my arms and legs weren't strong anymore, I thought i am losing all my motor skills, I couldn't get a shower thought I would fall or have a stroke while taking one. (LOL) I can laugh now because a week ago I thought all of that, and now I'm taking a break to talk to you while I'm outside doing yard work. The mind does so many weird things and we have to control it or it will control us. I am not healed and I think it may take me a good while to get there, but if your 100% healthy try to remember it's all in your head. Fight it stay strong and feel free to talk to me anytime I have found much support on this board. Oh yeah don't read negative things it's a real bad thing to do, I always did it, but not anymore. Are you taking any meds for your anxiety? Well my heart goes out to you and I'll check on you or keep us updated. Take Care hollygirl33

 
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Old 06-20-2008, 03:49 PM   #3
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I am the same exact way. I think i make symptoms show up. Usually i worry about my heart, that is a 24/7 thing with me. I have had all the test and they all show my heart is fine but if i get any pain above my knee....i just know for sure its my heart. Right now i keep getting headaches, dizziness and my eyes feel kinda strange sometimes and now im worried i have a brain tumor or a stroke is coming or an annuryism (sp). I have been obsessing about these new symptoms for about a week now. I talked to my doctor and he put me on an antibiotic thinking it is a sinus infection. If it is not better when im done with the medicine i am asking for an MRI to find out if something is wrong. I hate living like this, it consumes my life and ruins my life. All my family and friends know im a hypochondriac, i do take ativan as needed which i take .25 once a day. I have tried anxiety classes but they dont work, i need a class for hypochondriacs. I cant imagine living like this the rest of my life.......I HATE IT!!!! Dont feel alone there are TONS of us just like you on this board. If you wanna talk im here alot.

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Old 06-21-2008, 02:35 PM   #4
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OMG I do the same things ya'll are discussing! I thought it was just me!! I don't drive anymore because i feel for sure i will die and nobody can rescue me, i hate being alone for same reason. I think i'm dying of a new ailment everyday!! it's exhausting!! I would love to fight this! if anyone knows how, please help!!

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Old 06-22-2008, 07:29 AM   #5
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I can relate to all of you! I too am a hypochondriac. It wasn't until recently though that I put the name to the symptoms. I have in the past worried about my heart. I was terrified to have surgery (minor) because I was afraid the anesthesia (sp?) would cause my heart to give out. I used to get palpitations and so I was terrified there was something wrong. I've had an EKG, etc. and everything looked fine so that has subsided a bit. Lately, I've been terrified about cancer. I found a breast lump and was certain it was cancer. I saw my dr and he was certain it was nothing serious and sent me for an ultrasound just in case. The ultrasound found nothing and so he said I have what is called fibrocystic disease which just general differences in texture and results in a lump of really normal tissue-not cancer. I even had a second opinion and that dr said the same thing. But I'm not convinced!! I'm paranoid and certain that at some point they will realize they were wrong and I was right. It's awful. And of course there is some OCD going on so I'm constantly checking myself. Which then leads to finding new things because I'm looking so closely. It really is awful. I just recently upped my dose of Effexor and I can say that has helped. I don't feel as panicky. I go to therapy weekly. It does help meeting people like me who can understand what goes through my mind. I hope I can be of help and comfort to you all too.

 
Old 06-23-2008, 08:49 AM   #6
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Thank you for all your replies!

Its nice to know that I am not alone. Im 27 years old and I feel that I cant live my life how i should be living it.

I feel like its starting to take over my life. Its always been bad, but it seems to get worse after I have a cold or something else. Thats usually the trigger.

I was just diagnosed with Bronchitis, I really think that is what set off my most recent episode.

Example: I am CONVINCED I have HIV. CONVINCED. And I am so scared to go get tested. I have been in a steady faithful relationship for almost 4 years but before that I was single and having fun...maybe to much fun. Made a few mistakes, which I am sure everyone has. And now I am paying for it. I am CONVINCED that I have it.
The fear is life consuming.

Example: I had an ingrown hair on my thigh and was convinced it was herpes, went to TWO doctors. My gyno and planned parenthood and both of them told me it wasnt, it was just an ingrown hair and that some people are pron to them. I still dont believe them.

I dont know what to do.


I am obsessed with it. Every little symptom makes it worse.

 
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Update:

I am conquering my fear and going to get tested for HIV today.

 
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Please let us know how everything goes.

 
Old 06-24-2008, 03:35 AM   #9
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NEGATIVE!!!


 
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I was pretty much 100% sure it would be negative. There you go...how does that feel?

 
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It feels amazing!!

 
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So what's your next move?

 
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To find myself a good doctor who can help me work through my anxiety problems.

 
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There you go, hon'.

 
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As I read all the replies to the original post, I get a some type of relief that I am not the only one out there that suffers from crazy thoughts. I am 25 years old and every day I wake up and know once I get into the car to go to work, something is going to be wrong, I am sure that day, is the day I am going to die! I have had every test done for dizziness. I have been to an ear, nose and throat specialist that ran every test possible and everything came back normal. This was a long time ago and I told him I had anxiety and he did say that definitely can cause it. Before that it was my heart. I went to a cardiologist and had it checked. I even got to wear a monitor for 24 hours and I was sure that would show something, but no, I was okay. I am at my doctors a lot (used to be once every few months but now its more like once a month ). It makes me upset when the nurse brings me back and says "what are you hear for today" with a tone! But now I concentrate on my breathing and my throat closing. I feel like I can't breath right. I want to get an x-ray of my lungs so I know they are clear but, I know my doctor will think I am nuts. Also, I feel like I can swallow right and my throat is closing so I am not eating that much because I can kinda feel it go down my throat and that freaks me out more. I call my mom and say "my throat is closing up" she says to me "yeah, sure it is." but then re assures me that I am not allergic to anything and its all in my mind It does feel good talking to her because she can calm me down for a good 10 minutes!

I have realized that every thought in my mind happens and it always leads to, I am going to die. I can't breath, my throat is closing, I am going to die or my heart is racing, I am having a heart attack, I am going to die.

I decided to go to a physiologist that is familiar with health anxiety because I can not go on like this anymore. I take .25 alarazopam (sp) almost every day, but sometimes the anxiety is so overwhelming it does not work. It consumes my day. I am losing weight, not eating that much and having a hard time concentrating at work. I have had anxiety for about 5 years and have never had problems at work until up about 3 weeks ago and I will NOT let it interfere with my work, it's taking too much away from me by doing that!

I wish you all the very best and I am happy to know I am not the only one out there that has these thoughts. I just wish more people around me understood it as well as you all do! Good luck to you all!

 
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