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I suffer from anxiety as well as depression - I know they go hand in hand.

I've recently come off my AD's after 2-3years(more about that later), and everything has gone back to how it was before. I get restless, I have panic attacks, I don't sleep well, I'm emotional. I'm really trying to figure this one out, since I've done a lot of therapy before I was on medication to teach me how to understand myself. But I seem to get anxiety all the time, most of the time without rhyme or reason. Sometimes I know why I am anxious like before I do something stressful, but to be like it all the time makes no sense. Doctors just look at me funny and send me on my way. I've had this problem since I was a toddler, or maybe even before that according to my parents.

All I want to do, is to enjoy my life, and not be hindered by these problems. Nobody understands it in my family, they are like "you will grow out of it" even though I've had it all my life. Will I still be waiting to "grow out of it" when I'm 80?

There must be an underlying cause, I don't believe this is 'it' and that's the way I must live. Because, this is agony, and it gets me down and it stops me progressing and getting on in life.

I came off AD's because they just hid the problem. The problem was still there, they just let me forget. Also with being on AD's I was getting tired all the the time.

A couple of suspicions of mine that might be part of the problem or the cause (also have in some cases been medically linked to anxiety):

-thyroid issues (however I had a thyroid test 3 years ago and it came back fine)
-adnrenal gland problem (I don't know how you get this tested, but I think it's a pretty known medical fact that anxiety can be stimulated through here)
-some other mental health problem (undiagnosed and possibly the culprit of it all)
-some disease (another undiagnosed problem that could be the culprit).


Here are some symptoms I have everyday:

-oversensitivity to noise, sounds.
-emotional: many highs and lows. I seem to cry very easily also.
-obsessions: I am VERY, VERY obsessive about things, I like things to be done a certain way or I freak out. Example: when I was young I didn't like eating sandwiches made by anyone except my parents. Another one, I don't like drinking in other people's homes from the fear of contamination. I am fussy about the cleanliness of people's cutlery also.
-I have sleep disturbances, like hallucinations and bad thoughts. I also get sleep paralysis.
-I suffer from very bad IBS.
-I can be delusional in the sense, I think people plot against me.
-I can suffer from the shakes from time to time, this can feel like really high andrenaline which can go on for 2-3 hours - which I've to put to rest with exercise but it makes no difference.

What do you think this could all be?

Well there you have it, there is some of the things I suffer from daily. Now that is off my chest, please excuse me while I go vomit.