Hello all
iv been having problems recently, they started around 6 months asgo when i would wake at around 2am every night - completely out of breath. first time i had it, i thought i was dying, but then i kind of got used to it. a few months later, i started to have these attacks in the daytime. sometimes, my heart races very fast, or it feels like i miss a beat. i have been through the whole thing going to the doctors week in week out, - every symptom i have i think of the worst possible thing - lately, i went to the hospital and got a heart check up, to find that i have a great heart with no problems.
next episode, i went on holiday with friends and i was sitting on the beach, and a wave went from my feet to my head and i got really scared. i thought that was it - heart racing, i was sweatting and it felt like a ghost had taken over me. i was breathing very very fast and it went fter around 10 minutes, but the worry didnt. it is getting worse.
recently, i have had a stomach bug and have been sick and need the toilet a lot more than usual. my panic has got a lot worse, and again - feels like something bad is going to happen. iv been the doctors (again) and they give me excersises to do - ie relaxing methods.
My breathing is still bad - around 4 times a day now, i lose my breath and need to gasp, until something catches my attention and then it goes perfect again.
i feel like im on my own on this - everyone seems to just say "<YOU> need to calm down" and when they say "how are you" and i say "am not great" they turn a blind eye and its as if they think "oh dont start being a hypocondriac"
even my doctor is thinking i am a hypocondriac!
its in all kinds of situations as well. i seem to be scared of my own shadow at times, but then at others, i am perfectly fine. a few weeks ago, i went to see linkin park, i had to leave after 3 songs because i thought something bad was about to happen and i wouldnt get to hospital in time with all the people in the way
last weekend, i was out with friends and i all of a sudden got scared and panicy, and had to rush home.
only last week - when i had my stomach bug, i sat down, and exhaled. then i was like paralysed for around 20 seconds - i couldnt move nuffin but my eyes. i tried and tried and then everything moved again. that really scared me!
it makes me act differently too - when im normal - im Gav.
when i feel bad (3-4 times daily now) i am someone else. i shake, panic, cant talk, or concerntrate - as well as the usual breathing problems, sweatting, and general being scared of living
its getting worse every day - i am normally such a fun loving person
at the moment, i cant enjoy nothing because im paniking that il start paniking - o dear i already did!
can anybody help me - im tired of waiting for it to disappear
thanks
gav
