I know I have severe anxiety problems, but have been taking steps to correct them (I recently started seeing a psychologist, have been trying to read more self-help books, etc). I had been doing pretty well, after my last "issue" where I was sure I had heart problems, etc. Things had been going pretty well for the past few weeks, I had been doing things to help overcome my social anxiety, then I started having some headaches. Nothing that serious, so I didn't worry about them.
Well, then I noticed that I was sort of forgetting words, and losing focus, and almost getting mentally "tongue-tied." That freaked me out, since it was something that was going on in my mind, so of course I took that to the worst case scenario, and just knew that I had a brain tumor. I went from not worrying, to scheduling a doctor's appointment next week, to calling back several times a day to see if they had any cancellations so I could move my appointment to this week.
Well, I went to see the doctor and told her the problems I was having, and told her that I was worried it might be a tumor. She did the usual basic checkup, where she looked into my pupils with a light, and checked my eye movement, and checked to see if I could do certain movements (smile, shrug my shoulders, etc). She said everything looked normal, and she saw no swelling when she looked into my pupils, and of course said that I didn't really exhibit the signs of a brain tumor.
I felt a little better, but not really, since I was still having these mental changes, where I was mixing up words, etc. I was literally worrying myself sick earlier, feeling as though I was about to throw up, and having a weird feeling in my mouth where it felt like it was seizing up so I couldn't swallow correctly.
I know that my panic attacks sent me to the emergency room before, and it about sent me again. I was going to go so they could do an MRI or CT to relieve my worries, hoping that if the reason my mind is so jumbled up right now is because I am making it worse by worrying, hopefully finding out nothing is wrong will make me feel better.
I just can't live like this, though. It's so awful. I am wasting my life away with anxiety and worrying about death. I can't afford to keep doing this, neither financially or mentally.
I checked some of the anxiety symptoms on the sticky list, but I didn't really see anything about the sort of mental changes I'm having, which makes me worry even more. Is it possible that my anxiety is causing me to jumble up words, and make more typos than usual (as I type this), and completely zone out for a second or two where I forget what I was doing? I know the mind is a pretty powerful thing, so it's likely, but I haven't seen anyone else with these sort of symptoms, so it's even more worrying.
I don't know, I guess I am just looking to vent in a way, to let out all of this frustration that has been destroying my life. Coming here, it's surprising to see how many people have the same sort of problems. Isn't it awful what we do to ourselves? Sigh.
Hi there. Ive suffered two bouts of anxiety and am going through one now. The first was 10 years ago at the age of 25, i had my 1st panic attack as i had chest pains. What id done was pulled muscles in my chest through weight training, but i wouldnt accept it. I went to the accident and emergency room to have an ecg, just a few weeks after having one at my doctors! Then, i was at the docs atleast once a week thinking id got all sorts. I eventually got out of it with the aid of beta blockers. 10 years on, a chronic sinitus problem brought on panic attacks again, where i couldnt drive or socialise. Beta blockers yet again (im 3 weeks into them) has help the panic but not took the problem. MyIm still fully congested and cant go out too far because of feeling light headed and ill. The brain tumor bit went through my head, as did irregular heart beats, stomach disorder through constant heart burn. Its all worry - you will know when somethings not right. Millions are going through the same as us so dont worry too much. Are you on beta blockers?
Okay, I know people are probably tired of my comments about this type of stuff...but there are a ton of vitamin deficiencies which can cause that. I had foggy brain, and spacing out, and so tired, and unable to think of words or remember was I was thinking about three seconds ago. I would get worried I would get lost with my kids in the car...docs kept telling me it was anxiety. Well, yes, of course I was anxious, i was scared either something serious was wrong, or I would space out and not pick my son up from school, etc. Anyway, as it turned out, I was deficient in a bunch of vitamins...b12, iron, magnesium, and the Bs...
Do you take a multivitamin? Now, don't get me wrong, i also take antianxiety meds as needed, but since starting a regimine of supplements, I havent needed the benzos...
You can have your doctor tests you for specific deficiencies, or you can just start taking a multi as well as a B. Don't take iron without having a ferritin test from your doc...
No. I actually never knew what "beta blockers" were till I came to this site; I assumed they had something to do with your heart. Are they like the anti-depressants you hear about all the time?
I don't take any medication for my anxiety, but after this bout, I'm thinking I need to. I am worried though, since my mom works in the pharmacy and I don't want her knowing about all of my anxiety problems. I pretty much keep them to myself, which is a bad thing to do as well.
I have settled down a bit, by playing some Yahoo games and trying to keep my mind off the constant worrying. I will have to play it by ear. If I still worry myself so much over the weekend, I will have to do something about it; as I said, either go get an MRI to relieve my fears, or see my doctor again about all this anxiety and see if she can prescribe something.
I had felt so good about the therapy I had been undergoing, and had no health anxiety, then BOOM, all of this happens, and I get completely freaked out. I talked about it with my psychologist yesterday, but it still didn't make me feel much better, which isn't good since normally I feel a lot better talking with her.
This anxiety stuff is just so awful. I can't believe I'm letting it ruin my life, but dang it, it sure is ruining my life. And I can't seem to help it. Just when I started to feel like I was making headway, I experience some health issues, and all the anxiety comes back, even worse this time. Once before has my anxiety sent me to the ER, and I considered that like the worst point; and I'm almost at that point again. It's just so awful.
Well, I had been on a weight loss program and when I was on that, I had been taking a multivitamin. However, I got off my program for almost a month or so, and in that time, I had not taken the multivitamin. I have recently started again, but only in the past couple of days, since when I get "scared" like this, I usually respond by trying to exercise and eat better and lose weight, etc.
I just have never had mental problems like this before, that's why it scared me so much. But it's a neverending circle, because now I am so focused on it, I notice slip-ups which probably would have never worried me at all before. It's like when you read alone, you can read just fine, but if you are asked to read out loud in front of class, you get self-conscious and start to worry, and you start to mess up a lot.
I'm hoping that is all there is to this, but again, I don't know. I still worry about it being a brain tumor or something serious, even though my doctor said my symptoms were not indicative of a brain tumor. But I won't know for sure unless I get an MRI, or something definitive like that. I know I should just trust her, but I worry. And worry makes my symptoms worse, as I said, I seem to slip up even more mentally, and earlier I was developing more symptoms (like feeling like I was about to throw up, or that weird feeling that made it seem like my tongue was about to seize up or something and not let me swallow).
It's just so awful, I hate this all so much, yet I can't seem to do anything to get rid of it.
PS - when writing this post, you had me focus in on myself, and I didn't commit nearly as many typos as I had been, and I hadn't slipped up mentally like usual. I think that's another sign it's just all in my mind, but again, I can't seem to get over it. My mind has a lot of thoughts that I can't help, like getting fearful in social situations, or taking every symptom to the extreme and assume I'm dying, etc. I wish I didn't think this way, but it's like I can't help it.
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