Anxiety- Can I have opinions please. - Anxiety Message Board

lul44worth · 11-11-2008, 02:24 PM

Hi Guys,

I need some advice and peoples opinion please, its important if you think that your in this situation and what would you decide:- here goes...

I have been suffering from anxiety now for 6-7 weeks.. I am having panic attacks every evening... it started when I woke up to a severe one and since then I have been scared to go to sleep and scared something is wrong with me.. I just cant help it from happening even though I am really trying.

I suffered from them when I was younger so I know I am prone to them.. I am getting some help and going to start a stress less course next tuesday which im hoping will help.....this is my issue thats stressing and worrying me even more... Its my Fiance's 21st and we are supposed to be going away next friday.. we are going away with about 12 other people but I just dont think im ready for it... Im not sleeping well.. not eating well.. I usually enjoy my drink but I just want to get over these before i start drinking again.. and I am so scared of flying.. I usually just take diazepam which I know does help but as im suffering from anxiety already my fears are even worse. 1. that I will die 2. Im so far away from home and what if I have them whilst we are out and I can't just go back to the hotel by myslelf (its prague by the way we are going to) 3. Im scared of being sick and others being sick round me and I know my Fiance is prone to drinking a lot and then getting sick.. its ok at home as I can just sleep in the other room.

I dont want to avoid things and I have given myself a goal to be better for christmas... as im suffering bad at the moment I just think I will spoil it for him if I go as I dont want to drag him back to the hotel as im panicking.. so I think this is making me worse.. ive spoke to him and he just wants me better so he doesnt mind if I didnt go... I do feel so bad though as I have organised it and paid for it but I just dont think im ready. Please give honest opinions and I know I am avoiding it at the time being but I know I am going to get better but its only a week and half away and I think I will be rushing things by going.. I cant get it off my mind and I need advice.. Im worried what my family and friends with think especially the ones that are going. I very worried unhappy lady at the moment. Plllllllllease help.

x

Sal88 · 11-11-2008, 08:16 PM

What would make you feel better? This getaway is a perfectly awesome idea which I congratulate you for thinking of! As you dont feel willing to go just explain how you are dealing with this. You have years ahead to make it up to him and his need at the moment I'm sure is to see you feel better... its the only way to see you recover more effectively I know I'm so sick of not pushing myself too hard but you dont want to be ill for 6 yrs when it can be for like 3 for example. You know whats best for you. Also dont brain bash yourself up its mean to your intelligent brain cells

(hugs)

violet312s · 11-11-2008, 10:57 PM

Two weeks before I finally raised the white flag and got help was when I went on a family-event trip with my SO of 8 years. If anything it solidified that I needed help. I used to travel 60% for my job (air).

Sounds like your SO knows you need help. Get it sooner rather than later. If your experience is anything like mine, you'll have a horrid "vacation" but it will be an eye-opener on how anxiety is taking over your life. This is a good thing as it will drive you to get help.

You're pushing it just like I did. Stop it now before you associate more things to avoid. Talk to your primary doctor and ask for a recommendation for a psychotherapist (not psychiatrist). If your doctor brushes you off, get a new one (I love mine!).

Just my humble opinion. Medication and therapy has helped me greatly. I went from complete agoraphobe to back at work in 10 weeks. Seriously, couldn't leave my house there for a bit.

Best wishes to you. It's a rough road, but we get through it (bumps and all)

lul44worth · 11-12-2008, 12:50 PM

Thanks for that- much appreciated... I just think its too soon to be going on a holiday where im going to be going to pub/clubs where im not drinking and I am feel rubbish.. if I was having panic attacks once in a while fair enough but its every day.. which is effecting my sleep.. my stomach... and I just generally feel rubbish.. achey and stuff.. if it wasnt such a special occasion fair enough but its important he has a good time and not spend his time looking after me. Hopefully christmas I will free and if not almost free from this rubbish anxiety. kind regards.

TEdds83 · 11-12-2008, 08:58 PM

lul44worth. I feel for you. I have been in identical situations as yours. I am a life long sufferer of panic and anxiety disorder. And I do believe it is an illness that requires therapy and or medication. It is a pattern of "what if" thinking...
Like what if the plane crashes? What if I get sick where I am going and I can't get to a doctor and get help? What if I lose my mind? What if everyone thinks I am crazy for feeling this way?? Been there done that. I have actually cancelled trips because I couldn't get on the plane. It comes and goes. I was fine for a long time. Now it's back again because I worry about my health and I have a bad cough that I am dealing with. So now I am "what if" thinking. It ruined my birthday today and my husband and I stayed in for dinner instead of going out.

All this to say...try not to let it ruin your life. Because it can. Try to face your fears. But if sometimes you can't, don't beat yourself up about it ok? There are times when I don't go. It's ok. If people love you, they will learn to understand. Hang in there. You aren't alone. You will make it through!