Is this what anxiety is??? Please help....
Two mos. ago I ended up in the ER. I had had heart palpitations on and off for over a week. One Fri it lasted all afternoon/evening. After going to bed and not being able to sleep I started feeling really WEIRD. I jumped out of bed and ran to the bathroom. My husband was still up watching TV. As I sat on the floor, I started getting sweaty and faint and literally felt like I was going to die. I went out in the living room and told my husband SOMETHING was wrong. With our son sleeping, he didn't know what to do....wake him up and take me to ER? Call an ambulance? I ran to the phone and called my parents. She said she and my dad would be right over to take me to the ER. While at the ER, they did an EKG, chest xray, bloodwork....the only thing they found was my thyroid was EXTREMELY high which often causes heart palpitations. Told me to follow up with family dr the following week.
So looking at my results from the ER, my dr put me on thyroid meds <WITHOUT> doing any further testing. She also put me on a beta-blocker to stop the heart palpitations because thyroid meds can take awhile to "kick in." In 6 wks or so she had me go for bloodwork to check my thyroid levels and then I was to see her the following week (last week). A few wks after starting the thyroid pills my heart palps started decreasing noticeably. Then over the last 3 wks or so, they seemed to be coming back even being on the beta blockers. My dr said my thyroid levels were now normal, so she didn't know why I was still having the palps. She did an EKG while in the office which came back normal. So she had me do a 24 hr holter monitor. I had it removed last Fri and they said she would call me early next wk to give me the results.
Well Sat afternoon, the palpitations had gone on for several hrs! Then I started panicking and my husband seemed to be getting irritated that I wouldn't relax, which made it worse! He told me to call my dr, so I did. She told me to take one of my beta blockers and call her in a half hr. It was amazing, as soon as I hung up the phone.....I started to feel better and my heart stopped pounding out of my chest. When I called her back she told me that she had looked at my monitor results and from what she saw, everything looked ok. SHe said she still had to have it looked at a little closer, but overall, nothing looked alarming. Then she asked me if I was stressed....I said we're just relaxing at home waiting for friends to come over later....I wasn't having any stress. But I told her about a friend of mine who has suffered from anxiety for awhile who mentioned that's what could be going on with me. My dr kinda didn't come right out and say it, but then when I mentioned that, she said yeah, she was kinda thinking it. She gave me her cell # and said call her anytime, esp if I felt worse. Said I probably shouldn't worry if it's just on and off heart palps, but go to ER if I have any pain or trouble breathing.
Prior to probably the last week or so, the heart palps oddly have been starting about the time I leave work and while I am at home in the evenings. I am always "at rest." I must say my life at work is much less stressful than home. Seems my husband isn't as understanding as I need him to be and honestly we haven't been getting along real well in the last few years. Seems like we're always irritated with each other. We have a 3 yr old....and anyone who's had a toddler knows how challenging they can be sometimes! LOL It can be hard being a mom, wife, and full time employee. I do a lot to keep up with the housework because my DH works a FT job and then cleans our sons daycare in the evening in exchange for free daycare. I was talking to a friend at work about this. I said I haven't had anything MAJOR in my life that would cause anxiety/depression like a job loss, etc, but she said it could just be a lot of little things piling up and it's causing anxiety/stress/depression that I don't even realize. Honestly, I am a VERY uptight person anyways who has ALWAYS tended to worry about everything.
Over the last 2 days I've also had some "chest discomfort." I hate to call it chest pain, but it's just little twinges of pain off and on in my upper chest. My chest also feels a little sore. It is not anything SEVERE and I don't have any other symptoms like shortness of breath. I am able to sleep through the night. Done some research online and I'm starting to think it's just anxiety, esp reading other people's experiences. Yesterday my husband and I got into it....which I think made it worse. I think he's worried about me too, but he responds by getting all irritable and nasty. I cried and cried last night and he said I irritate him when I have problems and he has to keep telling me to call the dr. He keeps telling me to relax, that I'm making things worse. I just don't feel he is comforting or understanding, which adds to my problem. After I got all upset, he is trying to be there for me by telling me he loves me and I'm not alone....but it's not enough.
Over the last week I have cried a lot too. Anything makes me cry. I'm very emotional anyways, but I just feel really sad this week. I think things with my husband aren't helping the matter. I worry that I have something majorly wrong with my heart and often I worry about dying and worry what would happen to my son without a mom. Is this crazy?!??! Am I being irrational??Although my tests seem to be normal so far, the anxiety of not knowing why this is happening is really driving me crazy! My dr is going to have me have an echocardiogram next month also. I just want to feel NORMAL again. I've started to think about other things I've experienced with my health that could also indicate anxiety.....A yr ago I went to my dr for what I thought was IBS....put me on meds for that and it is controlled now. Then this summer I was having a little insomnia so she gave me some sleep meds to take when I can't sleep. So is this what anxiety feels like?????
Last edited by ms_mod; 12-16-2008 at 10:01 AM.