Thanks for letting me know that I'm not alone in how I feel. I've been seeing a therapist for over a year now and I don't know that she's really helping me a whole lot, but it's nice to go and talk to someone for an hour once a week or so and just have them listen to you and not judge what you're saying.
I do have some stress in my life right now. My son who is 6 hasn't been adjusting very well to 1st grade. He wants to stay home with me and we had this problem with separation anxiety for him in kindergarten, but because it was only a half day program, it was better. It does seem to slowly be getting easier and we've put a "reward" program into play that will hopefully be a success. I'm also a worrier and negative self talker by nature. I have been that way since I was a little girl and my husband also has anxiety, but his isn't so health related like mine is so he doesn't really understand. I feel like my anxiety and his anxiety stresses our relationship to an extent which then results in more anxiety for me.
I've had a ton of tests, both for the head and the heart and all have come back fine so I'm thinking that it most likely is just my anxiety, but it can be so incredibly hard to deal with!! I did try accupuncture and felt so calm afterward that it scared me so I never went back. I'm thinking of giving it a shot. I just want some instant relief and I know that isn't going to happen, but it makes trying breathing techniques/meditation/exercise seem so hopeless. I guess that's the negative self talk that I need to work on.
I'm not going to give up, but sometimes it's so so so hard to rationalize and believe that you aren't going crazy because you feel like you're going to lose it any minute