The doctor from the walk-in clinic gave me ativan and paxil today and while the ativan will be ok until I can see my dr I am hesitant to take the paxil. I am super tired of living with this gripping fear that seems to hit me everyday. During the day it's some random thing that is going to kill me and at night I suffer flash backs to when I had a severe complcation after the birth of my dd and there was fluid in my lungs. I just want to feel normal.
I do have one problem, I"m wondering now if I am a horrible mother.
I have 6 kids at home all day now and my husband works long hours. We just moved here 2 months ago and don't know anyone so I am stuck in the house with fighting screaming kids and I lose it waaaay too much. Now with the ativan in me I am finding I am not reduced to a screaming monster when they fight.