fear of getting better?
I know this sounds weird, but does anyone fear getting better because that's when panic attacks hit the worst? I mean I want to be free of anxiety so bad but in the back of my mind I'm afraid to feel good. When I feel good and start to forget about my anxiety it's when it hits me "out of the blue" and hits the hardest. At least when I feel down it can't bring down much further, it's expected and i'm already in a mind frame to help myself cope and manage. Does that even make sense, I feel like i'm a lose lose situation. I was just curious if anyone else felt like that. It's like the better I feel the harder they (panic attacks) hit, however this continous constant anxiety sucks as well but at these times at least know what to expect and am ready for the situation.