Re: please help
thank you so much for the replys. It helps knowing im not alone. I am on 100 mgs of zoloft and have been for years.
3 and a half years ago i had gotten my first real anxiety spike, didnt know what it was and thought i was going insane. my doctor assured me it was just anxiety and 3 months later i was anxiety free again. I have been on zoloft daily since then.
last week i drank some vodka and tequila the night before...not a lot... just enough to get buzzed... i should mention i do not drink and that was the first time i was buzzed/slightly drunk in many many years. the next day i woke up with horrible anxiety and instantly took 1mg of xanax before it got bad. it helped and the rest of the day was normal with no issues at all. i did not even think about the episode. I went to bed like any other night and the next day i woke up again with horrible anxiety... again took 1mg of xanax and left for vacation with my family and the rest of my day was good. then the next day i woke up again with it and this time it stayed with me all day and it hasnt gone away since. that was a week ago.
The anxiety i can deal with for the most part i guess. it is the scary thoughts that come with it. like, im not me, or i dont love my family, or i want to hurt them or i will never get better, or i will end up insane.
Now i would never harm anything. i try not to even hurt bugs, i usually free them rather then kill them. But these thoughts are here and they hurt me to my soul. I worry i am changing personalities into someone else and can never get back to me. if that makes sense.