| | please help me
i went to the clinic today because i have convinced myself that after a yeast infection, i had contracted some deadly disease and that i was going to die, or not be able to be with my kids...and on and on. while i was there the doctor just kept saying that i didnt have what i thought i had.
she said that i needed to see the therapist, and she gave me ativan. she said that what im going through is anxiety and panic attacks! i had never even considered that was what is wrong. looking at all of the symptoms, and really taking an honest look at myself i believe that is whats wrong. my big trigger is if i think that myself or my babies are sick, i always think that it is going to kill us!
like i thought that when my son had a really bad stomach virus that he would just die from it. or the yeast infection i had conviced myself that it was HPV, and therefor i must have HIV. i know it sounds crazy, but in my head, thats what happens. i think it comes from the fear of not being here for my kids. im just wondering if anyone else feels this way, im scared, and i feel so alone in this.
pretty much before today the thought of telling ANYONE that i felt this way was just not an option. PLEASE TELL ME THAT THIS IS PART OF THE ANXIETY!! That i can get better with help, and that i can overcome this!!