Ok... this is going to be sort of long so I apologize in advance and really appreciate those of you willing to read my post and help out
Anyway, I have had a history of anxiety disorder (GAD) and health anxiety for at least the past 10-15 years... give or take a few and I'm 27 now. I've tried numerous AD's to try and conquer the anxiety and haven't been able to handle the side effects of most of them. Well this past January my migraines got so bad that I had to try some type of medication daily and my GP recommended Pristiq 50 mg's once a day to hopefully alleviate the migraines as well as the anxiety. I have to say that while I was on the medication my migraines were much better and when I did get one, they were much easier to treat. My anxiety initially was jacked up, but after a month or so it too seemed to calm down. Miracle medication right?! Not really, but I wish. Now here is where it all gets complicated...
My husband and I have been married for 7 years and have an 8 year old son. My husband went through an early mid life crisis I guess and started to behave completely unacceptably which caused me a TON of stress. This was all last spring, March of 2010 before I was on any medication other than Xanax. I pushed through it and stayed strong for the sake of my son who is very sensitive and my sidekick no matter what
I thought we had made it through the worst of things and then he started to get really difficult, manipulative, lied about stuff all the time, drank way too much... the whole 9 yards. In November everything crumbled and he told me he wanted a divorce. I was devistated. We thankfully were able to go to counceling and work through most of it and moved on. I haven't forgiven or forgotten, but I love him enough to stick it out and keep moving forward. During the really rough time for us though I became extremely close to a male friend of mine and shouldn't have at all, but I did. I know I was wrong, but I was scared, feeling very alone and confused. I've since pulled far far away from him and we don't even talk which is hard sometimes because he was like a best friend to me, but I realize it wasn't good for my family for me to keep the friendship up.
I started back to work to keep myself busy since my son is in school full time now and I took a long term sub job in the school district in April. I had been on my Pristiq for almost three months at this time and was feeling great. Then one day I started to get skipped beats/palpitations almost all day long either every third or fourth beat. I took Xanax when this happened and it did help sometimes. Exercise or exertion seemed to make the palpitations worse though even with taking Xanax. Like I said I'm 27 years old, I've had Stress Echo's, 24 hours holter monitors, EKG's, blood work and dopplers of my heart all within the past 5 years and the most recent EKG about a month ago and they all show completely normal heart function and that everything is structually fine other than benign PAC's/PVC's and some occasional sinus tachardya. My doctor thought it could be the Pristiq causing them so he took me off of it cold turkey and I did feel better for a few days surprisingly. Now today I was driving with my son to my Mom's to visit and I literally thought I was going to die in the car on the way there. I had a skipped beat every other beat so beat skip beat skip beat skip and it was going so fast I had a hard time even counting!! I took two Xanax for a total of .5 mg's and in about 10 minutes they had calmed down, but I was still scared and nervous. Now I've felt ok for the rest of the day thankfully, but I'm scared it could happen again. It was the most terrifying thing I've ever had. I also am dealing with a case of hives all over that I've had for the past 6 weeks
My question I guess is, do you think that all of this could really be occuring just because of all the stress I've endured over the course of the year and for whatever reason have decided to present itself in the form of crazy palpitations now? I'm really upset and afraid and I don't want to die. I want to be around to be with my son and my family until I've very very old. Any advice or comforting words would be so greatly appreciated. Thanks again for bearing with me and reading all of this, I just don't know where else to turn.