I posted messages on the IBS and Bowel disorder boards about a situation I'm going through with my stomach. I've suffered from IBS for over 20 years, and anxiety and depression makes my symptoms worse.
At the present time I'm on pins and needles waiting for my insurance company to authorize a CT scan that my doctor ordered after I saw her today because of my bowel issues. I don't know if this is stress-related, or scar-tissue related because of surgery, or something else. All I know is that I'm climbing the walls, waiting to find out when the test will be done.
Then I will be climbing the walls until the test is over with and again while waiting for the results.
I had a cancer scare in 2004. I don't want to go through anything like that again. I had a strangulated hernia/bowel obstruction two years ago. Again, I don't want to go through that either.
Any ideas as to how I can deal with my anxiety? I've been on Valium forever but it's not helping. There's no such thing as a good psychiatrist in my neck of the woods, so my primary care provider has been writing that prescription. She won't give me anything else.
The valium isn't helping alleviate my stress and anxiety over this blasted test I must have. I'm scared and unable to function.
I'm getting angry with God, which I know is wrong, but I can't help how I feel. I'm tired of being sick all the time. My medical history is long and complicated.
Please help....I'm at the end of my rope and don't know what to do, short of checking into the ER and insisting that they do the CT scan right then and there. My stomach has been acting up all day (white coat syndrome and stress?) and I am very very worried.