AlexandraS

i came across this site reading about anxiety
im very pleased to know im not the only one out here dealing with anxiety
i started having symptoms a few years ago . and its only gotten worse .
ive been to the hospital several times for them to tell me im fine there is nothing wrong with me.
they put me on paxil but it only made my symptoms worse and i refuse to take it . little by little it was going away . but low an behold it came back . but worse then the first few times.
now its constant i suffer from shakiness inside and out . my nerves have been very bad. no appetite, just wanna lay in bed and sleep . i cant sleep at night cause i start having bad thoughts, ive been threw alot growing up and alot with past relationships and now its finally hitting me .. all the stress and worries.
i dont want to rile on any medications. i just started taking stress vitamins and children chewables . and i also drink chamomile tea to calm my nerves and that helps alot also with nerves . but i still have them crazy thoughts there might be something else wrong with me . even though i know nothings going on .
but theres always that what if you know?
i just wish it would all go away im ready to get back to my normal self being a mother with anxiety is hard and stressful i also cut cokes an candy out my food i figured it was doing something to me .
i went to the hospital knowing what was wrong with me but still went cause i though it was something else...of course my negative thinking .
i constantly look at myself in the mirror to see if ive changed colors.. im always looking at my hands to see if there pale .im always drinking water. i just dont know what to do anymore
id really appreciate any replies and helpful tips on what i should do
thank you