MariaMS

I know what you are talking about Meow. You are doing the right things to help yourself. I was so relieved to read at the end of your post that you are going to make an appointment with a therapist. Make sure that you follow through with that. I'm going through a horrible anxiety time after an interstate move. I can't sleep, I have constant anxiety and I know it will pass eventually but it completely sucks while you are in it. I found a therapist and psychiatrist here within the 1st week we moved. I see the psych for the Xanax scripts and some talk therapy until next week when I see the therapist he suggested I speak with who will do most of the "talk" therapy with me. I want to reassure you that I have had this years ago and it just about completely went away and was under control for many, many years. Our family lifestyle change has completely thrown me and I'm having a terrible time settling into a new place (interstate move back to our original home state w/ my husband traveling back and forth on the weekends from and to his job in VA). I know that missing him is triggering this as are some strange medical things that I'm having to deal with at the same time. I completely understand feeling as if you are losing it. I just let myself cry when I get really bad and in a few minutes it's as if I just let out some anxiety by giving in. I'm trying to wait it out/feel it/face it and take my xanax as prescribed. I'm sure so many people here feel the same way and they too have had it before and have found a way to conquer it and live a much more comfortable life again. What I'm trying to do when it hits hard is tell myself that I'll be OK and in a little while the worst of it will pass but I do empathize with you and understand how awful this makes you feel. I hope you get to a therapist and start working on it. Relief comes through in small patches. I promise.