Anxiety makes me anxious!
I'm the most normal person ever, and yet I feel like I'm crazy.
I guess I've always had GAD, but panic attacks didn't begin until I was a senior in high school. I didn't know what it was until over a decade later!
I'm a perfectly healthy 30yr old woman and have never had any health issues. I started having PVCs this past September, really bad -- like 12 a minute, on and off. I ended up going to the cardiologist and getting the full gambit of tests -- absolutely nothing wrong. He told me to lay off the caffeine, alcohol, cigarettes, and stress!
PVCs have since gone away (thankfully), although I think I had a couple tonight after eating dinner because my heart started beating faster from digestion... it's the little things that set me off! Always my heart though.
Anxiety is killin me! I find myself obsessing about my heart, my heart rate, my heart beat, blah blah blah. It creates more symptoms of anxiety and I'm always on the edge of a panic attack. I hold my breath, that makes it worse. My shoulders are all tight and up closer to my ears... ugh.
I wish I could just get OUT of my BRAIN. I've tried all the breathing techniques, positive thinking tricks, distraction, exercise, I eat well, I sleep enough, I try to get my Vitamin D from the sun... and yet here I am, on an anxiety health board, obsessing about my heart still. Even typing about it makes my rate go up. I get caught up in thoughts about just dropping dead or my heart stopping, which I rationally realize is ridiculous. But I can't.stop.
I think I'll have to go for a drive to distract myself... doesn't feel like a good night.
Thanks for reading my rambles!