I have recovered from severe anxiety several times in my life and had years anxiety free. In 2007 with moderate stress it came back and I have been the worst I have ever been.
I sleep about 3 or 4 hours and wake up with an electrical feeling in my body that progresses to severe muscle pain, feeling agitated to the point I want to go screaming out of bed and run down the street. Every stupid thing I think about gets turned into an assault. I lay there and suffer until morning so as not to wake my wife.
When I get up I am so agitated I feel like I am going to explode. All day I have dozens of horrid physical symptoms and I cant cope with even the most minor stress. I have what I call nerve explosions just having normal thoughts and these hits happen all day long. It is like any stimulus makes me insane – just seeing a coffee cup on the counter jolts me
I guess I have what is called extremely sensitized nerves but good God this is beyond sensitized.
I have tried every class of anxiety medications and had severe adverse reactions to them all – some lasting along time. I have two therapists I have to work with on the phone because driving is too stimulating. I am not afraid to drive but I start to shake and feel like I am going to go insane with the stimulation
We have a perfect organic diet, I have a wonderful relationship with my wife, we are financially OK even though I cant work and I have no outside stress. I walk a lot to endure the pain and I ride my bike 10 miles a day – I meditate so what else can I do.
If it were not for my wife I would have terminated myself – this is beyond any pain I have ever felt – I never have a better day or hour and I don’t know what to do.
Has anxiety made anyone else this severe – all I do 24/7 is white knuckle cope.