I don't think it's different types of anxiety, but rather different symptoms of which there are a million. People with anxiety don't always get the same symptoms and none others, especially when they really have panic disorder.
Please elaborate. The counselor is seeing you for a few hours? Here they see you for 50 minutes. And he's picking you up? That's odd. Is that how it normally works in the U.K.?
Lol no I'm being picked up by my boyfriend tonight instead ofseeing him for a few hours monday night instead. The counselling session is 50 minutes on tuesday midday. I guess, I on't experience one symptom at a time and they change almost weekly.
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Unless only one is most dominant at one time? Took dog for walk, nearly had full blown panic attack with heaving as well. Got to work,it all went :s lol
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So yeah, shift was good... it's made my partner and I think perhaps it's agoraphobia now and although it started with work I've succeeded in convincing myself I'm safe at home and when I get to work and that's my goal, to get to work, once I'm there I can calm down. I even had the boss AND another staff member try and get me to sniff disgusting stuff, I think one was found in the managers office (a mug of mold) and the other was the bin and I declined as I knew it would make me heave lol.
My stomach feels uneasy today but it'll go, I woke up earlier than I wanted too because there was a cherry picker outside my flats and it was loud and I think the neighbour is moving out and they're loud also!
So yeah, shift was good... it's made my partner and I think perhaps it's agoraphobia now and although it started with work I've succeeded in convincing myself I'm safe at home and when I get to work and that's my goal, to get to work, once I'm there I can calm down. I even had the boss AND another staff member try and get me to sniff disgusting stuff, I think one was found in the managers office (a mug of mold) and the other was the bin and I declined as I knew it would make me heave lol.
My stomach feels uneasy today but it'll go, I woke up earlier than I wanted too because there was a cherry picker outside my flats and it was loud and I think the neighbour is moving out and they're loud also!
I have had an exhausting day, I had my counselling meeting, I changed the date from yesterday as I didn't feel I could leave the flat yesterday and did it today instead, I had some bad panic and felt very uncomfortable in the counselling room.
I spoke to him and really opened up about how I felt about my anxiety, how I felt I was losing my life and it being my 3rd bout of Anxiety since I was 18, how I feel I'm not strong enough to survive this one and mostly want to disappear (die). I spoke about my food obsession, how it effects it, when I panic, my panic history and some other bits and how I suffer with panic attacks.
He's given me a few things to look through, to 'practise' and I may need to change my doctor to a doctor who is more understanding about mental illness, especially as I might need to try anti depressives to calm my depression so it's only Anxiety I need to focus on.
I've got to wait for everything to come through now as it was only an assessment. It's hard work, I didn't calm down but walked through town to meet my friend, find some food and go to the cinema to watch Ted. It was good but I did panic a few times throughout the movie and a bit when we were walking towards the bus stop.
I'm exhausted but have one day off until I'm back to work for 3 days. I've been told they want me to be ready for day shifts in September so I need to work on myself to get myself to a level of fitness for then. They are quieter shifts which I usually struggle with more but we'll see.
Wow.....please realize that Anxiety/Panic are problems that can be controlled. You might have to go on meds, but that could make you better. Life is ALWAYS better than the alternative. I really hope you do not REALLY feel as you say about that. If you do, then you need to get help quickly. In the meantime, relax and try to stop focusing so much on your symptoms and keep your mind busy and maybe that will help. I'm sure you've tried that, but it helps me.
I'm not able to go on meds unless I change my doctor which is damn near impossible to do in my town.
Have done my shifts for last week, worked Friday, Saturday & Sunday, only had anxiety on Friday and Sunday but I'm suffering physically now which I'm going to my doctor about, sharp pains in my ankles, heels and then horrible aching of my ankles and knees after I rest. It's obviously because of the physical demand of my job but I don't know how I'm suppose to get around this.
My shifts this week are Tues, Wed and Sun... I'm doing okay right now, having what I am now starting to class a good week although today started bad because a moth flew in my bedroom and I ended up sleeping in the livingroom, but in the morning i found the moth and threw it out the window ^_^. I have a phobia of them.
Again, another week of decent shifts, I've lost 5.5lb on WW. I have one more shift on Sunday then 4 shifts next week back to back (morning, night, morning, night) then i'm on holiday for 2 weeks from the 1st to the 16th and I'm going to Cornwall on holiday.
