Hi am an new here so my story starts like this. Several years ago I was obsessed that I had heart problems. Started with chest pains and trouble breathing. Did that for months then went to the hospital and everything came back normal. For 2 years after or so I was to the point that I couldn't sleep thinking what is the use of going on with life if my heart is bad eventhough my doctor said it was fine. I passed that issue then about 2 years ago my dad passed away of colon and liver cancer. I thought I was going to be able to handle it but every since that day I am obsessed that I have cancer. Any pain in my stomach area triggers it. I have had really bad acid/heart burn for the past 2 weeks. My doctor told me to tak omeprozal and it does work. But as soon as I feel a little acid I automatically think I have cancer. I cannot live like this because I am not happy. My family knows when I am having an episode. My wife works with mentally ill people and she diagnosed me with Health Anxiety and OCD. I honestly hate being the person I am today. Why am I so obsessed with cancer. Then my mistake I go into the internet and type of my symptoms and "CANCER" shows up. Does anyone relate to this. Thanks.
I'm pretty new here as well, but when I read your story I had to respond. For the past week i've been pretty paranoid about just anything really and I start having signs of anxiety. Everytime I get on the internet and look up signs of stuff it makes me think I have something worse.. I told my mom about it and she believes that you can make yourself sick thinking about it constantly. Something that has helped me feel a little better about things is trying to avoid the internet at all possible causes. Think postive, read a book, do anything that will get your mind off it.
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I know what you mean it has gotten to the point that my wife took away the internet from the house and my cell phone. I hate being like this. Any new symptom that I feel, I look it up. Seeing my dad go through the cancer affected me way to much. Like I said I am so obsessed with "Cancer". I just see everyone in the street and wonder why can I be like them. It is affecting my work and my family. I don't spend that much time with my daughters as I use to. I also notice that my wife is getting a little frustrated and I don't want to loose them. I just wish she could understand that I don't like to be this way.
Same here, my boyfriend has been threating to take my computer from me.. Which in a way I think will be a good thing, since everytime I get on I always look up something new:/ Well, maybe you should get out more and spend time with your daughters, go camping, go fishing? I'm not sure what you all like to do for fun but that might help.. Maybe a little vacation away from everything?
Yes, I know what you mean. Like for example again last night I went to the library and started to look up symptoms and it got worst that I went into a FULL BLOWN ANXIETY ATTACK. I was literally crying while I was going back home wondering is it worth going on when I have this. When I got home my wife saw my eyes red and told me that if I had been on the internet and I cracked and told her yes. I told her I am tired of being a coward and not being the man that she deserves. She told me that I wasn't a coward because I have been fighting this for years. She told me I should seek counseling because she knows that I need it. I am planning on doing this because I am getting tired of this and I want to enjoy life with my family.
Oh boy you two, I can relate. But please do not lose hope. Living is wonderful even if we are anxious. I am a hypochondriac as well. I have been obsessed about my health for years and I have spent so much time on the internet, people have asked me if I'm a nurse because I have so much medical knowledge. Good and bad in a way.
This is a horrible way to live to be scared all the time, but it's better to me than the alternative. I know that when I got therapy, it didn't work, because no one could keep me from feeling the thing that was the root cause. I was scared of death. I still am. I don't know how talk therapy can take that away, but Sanchez....I think you should try therapy. Maybe there is a root cause that you have that is not the same as mine and therapy can help you. I think you are going through Post Traumatic Stress Disorder to some extent after the passing of your father and you are obviously internalizing his death.
I guess we can either live the rest of our lives (however long or short it is) with constant stress, anxiety and worry, or we can REALLY live our lives (however long or short it is) and find a way to shake this way of living. I'm gonna try to figure out a way to shake these horrible feelings.
Oh, and you are anything but a coward. I don't think people that don't struggle with anxiety have a clue how hard it is to live with it. I hope your wife sticks with you.
I am truly blessed to have such a wonderful woman by my side. She has been with me through some of the worst days of my life. I know that I am not a coward but I feel like this because I just wish I can just shake this off and keep on going, you know what I mean.
I am truly blessed to have such a wonderful woman by my side. She has been with me through some of the worst days of my life. I know that I am not a coward but I feel like this because I just wish I can just shake this off and keep on going, you know what I mean.
