Help?! Anxiety Meds?
I am Amy, a 19-year-old college student. I found this message board while looking for anxiety boards. I am looking for some advice/personal stories to aid with my anxiety.
I have had anxiety basically all of my life, but it seems to be getting worse. I have had two "panic attacks" in the past week. Normally, I only have them once or twice per year. My panic attacks start with the gut-twisting feeling and escalate into crying, shaking, heart pounding, hurting chest, not being able to breathe, and even into headaches. After one of these attacks, the aftermath can last for days. I get the gut-twisting feeling and feel nauseated.
My anxiety can come from many things...from financial worries to talking to my boss at work. If I try to call someone more than once and they don't answer, my mind automatically starts assuming the worst...they died, were kidnapped, locked me out of the house, etc. My anxiety has really been affecting my every day life for the past six months...my eating habits, sleeping too much, or not being able to sleep, etc.
The worst part of my anxiety comes from feeling like I am alone...like I have no one to help me through my anxiety/depression. After being anxious for a few days, more than not it will turn into depression. I feel alone, hopeless, like no one understands or is willing to help. I think that this stems from my childhood...growing up with a verbally-abusive father. I would feel completely alone and at times, wondered what it would be life if I wasn't on the Earth anymore. Now, when my boyfriend pushes me away or doesn't help me during my anxiety/depression times, my anxiety gets worse and turns into depression very easily.
I have been looking into anti-anxiety medicine and also have an appointment with a psychiatrist tomorrow. I feel that anti-anxiety medicine would help me a lot...in my relationships, work, school, and day-to-day life. However, I have read that many anti-anxiety medicines lead to addiction to the chemicals and cause more anxiety/depression than before going on the pills. Does anyone have any personal stories/advice as to whether I should/shouldn't go on anti-anxiety medicine? Or any opinions on whether this truly is anxiety...or something else? Please feel free to leave anything that may be helpful.
Any advice/opinions is GREATLY appreciated! Thank you!