I'm new here so I'll give you a little info. I'm currently pregnant with my first baby and my husband and I are thrilled. Before getting pregnant I was on 350 mg of Effexor which my old family dr stopped cold turkey as soon as I found out I was pregnant (crazy, I know). At the time I didn't care because I was riding the new pregnancy high and felt wonderful...but things are quickly going down hill and I feel like I'm losing my mind.
I see a psychiatrist but he's currently on holidays and I can't see him until the end of the month so I'm trying to deal with how I'm feeling on my own. I'm freaking out about everything. I feel like I have no control over my thoughts and I'm obsessing over every little thing. It's mainly all things I feel could affect my unborn baby. I worry about everything I eat to the point where preparing a meal causes me so much anxiety I don't want to eat anymore. If I inhale near my cats I'm terrified of contracting toxolplasmosis and it harming my baby. I wash my hands 50 times a day because I always feel like there are germs or bacteria on them that'll harm my baby. I'm at my wits end and find myself sobbing because I can't shut my mind off. Tonight has been absolutely awful...I cooked a can of corn with dinner and after eating it realized the can had a dent in it and I've been beside myself ever since. I make it worse by googling about it and now I'm convinced I have botulism and honestly hypochondria hasn't even been an issue for me before..but now it is.
My husband is the most patient man in the world but even he's becoming fed up with it and I can't blame him. I'm not thinking or behaving like a rational person.
Can someone please give me some advice or support? I want to be so strong for my baby but I feel like I'm losing control.