Fear of death , bad thoughts all day long !! - Anxiety Message Board

healthwise 24 · 01-07-2003, 06:00 PM

I had my first panic attack about 6 months ago in Atlantic City and i think since that day im declining in health or i think im declining in health .My father died 4 years ago this March of lung cancer and since his death i constantly fear i have Cancer , I had 3 sexual encounters in my life ,im 25 years old and i fear i Have contracted Hiv somehow . I break out constantly with blisters on my abdomen and stomach area and fear that is a sign of Hiv infection. My anxiety is through the roof . I live with my mother , my brother and my sister and that is not helping me . My girlfriend just moved back to Italy after being with her 3 years and it is soo hard dealing with it . Im currently out of work and life just seems to be crashing down around me . Im having lucid dreams of death alot and fear that is my anxiety eating me up. Everything my family does around the home just annoys me to the point i want to actually get up and hit them , i feel i will implode soon. What can i do to ease these thoughts i feel i need help before i die at an early age , i need to stop living like this , any thoughts would be great

nervousdave · 01-07-2003, 06:47 PM

Ok buddy,

First, you need to chill out. After that you need to see a doctor and get a complete physical. You do this so that you may rule out a lot of the possibilities that are churning in your head (i.e., cancer, lung disease, etc.) Second, after you get a clean bill of health get a free HIV exam. I’ve had three of them. You can expect the results in a week or less. I’m sure you’ll be able to hang for a week while they’re working on the results. Third, cut out all caffeine and high sugar content foods from your diet. Forth, get a relaxation cassette/CD and use it every day. It would be best to shoot for three times a day. Fifth, keep a journal. In this journal you’ll want to do a couple of things. You’ll want to write down all the scary thoughts (i.e., I’m going to die today) that come into your head. Next, you’ll want to write down all the negative thoughts (i.e., I’m a loser because I don’t have a job) that come into your head. The point is to put them on paper and begin to realize how ridiculous they are. Also, when you feel panicky write down what you were doing at the time and when. You’re looking for a pattern to your behavior. You have one, but you don’t know it yet. Sixth, get a book on panic attacks and anxiety. I’ll recommend Lucinda Bassett’s(sp) “From Panic to Power”. Everyone here will have a book suggestion.

Good luck,
nd

healthwise 24 · 01-07-2003, 10:12 PM

thanks for the reply it helps alot my mother had a history of panic attacks in her late 20's and people say they are genetically passed down and i feel ive been targeted and hit dead on . Again thank you for the reply as words can do alot in these situations

01-08-2003, 09:39 AM

yes it is haretity BUT mine arnt as no one has ever experienced these in my family.... i am getting awfull dreams that are scaring me... and i bet others are too.. just hang in there you will get through it..

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donna

ChadNDallas · 11-20-2003, 12:16 PM

Fear of death??? I experience that all the time. Pretty soon though I feel that I will get used to it and this whole anxiety think will just become a part of my life and I will just make the best of it. I'm not taking medications because I'm so afraid of them too. So, I will just have to learn to deal and live with the symptoms. I've also learned to ask myself a very simple question during times of stress anxious feelings. "If the situation is beyond my control, then there is no need to worry!!!!!!!!!!" If there is nothing that "I" can do about the situation, then why worry about it?"