ZZTexas

When Iam working is when Iam at peace.

When Iam sitting still with to much time on my hands then is when it hits me.

But one thing I like to do is get a lawn chair and go out side in the back yard late late late at night and lay flat on my back and look at the stars and moon in the late late night sky. You know now that is relaxation and sometimes think how litte we humans do know. Just lay there and wonder what was in this same spot that Iam layin in 1000 years ago and just thank the good Lord after he made all these miracle's he still thought about makeing me just a tiny spot in the big big ole world.

You know you would be surprised how relaxing that is to just lay and look at the nites sky. I read a book one time that said if you got at one end of the Milkey Way and you shot a bullit that travled 100,000 MPH it would take it a hunderd years to reach the other end of it. Now that is incrediable to me. The world is a big big place and it was made for us to enjoy not to be worried about things that are made up in our on minds. We have a thinking diease people thats all it is we entirely think to much about ourselfs and not about enjoying our lifes any more. Thank God I myself made it thru this stuff and can see the light at the end of the tunnel and all this suffering worrying about myself was for Zip when I could have been enjoying life I was worried about having a stroke or a heart attack, or I was going crazy, at one time with eyes wide open I was blinded with my on made up fears and now with eyes wide open I can see the cure lies within a persons self and the cure to this whole thing is accepting facts and not myths made up in our on minds.

Life is short, why worry about dieing, you cant stop it, I cant stop it, nobody can stop it, its every man and woman faith thats a fact nobody can control. Your gonna die, Iam gonna die and every living thing is gonna die the only differnce between us and the people that dont have this illness is they dont think about it and we do.

I feared dieing at one time, but I turst in the Lord to take care of me at one time I didnt, I let him handle my worrys and now I just live life and what ever it brings now, I face it head on, sure I still get antsy now and then but so what I have been that way 10,000 times before and Iam still here breathing walking talking just like I was 20 years ago when I had the first attack, you got to accept it is a fear you implanted in your on head, hell how many times you been to the Dr for him to tell you are fine how many test have you had for them to come back negtive, face the facts and not the myths made up by endless worrying and your endless suffering journey is over and you can live life just like the normal man and woman with out thinking about dieing every hour of every day.

Think about that will ya......ZZTexas