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Thank you for your reply. It was appreciated. It was very difficult for me to understand I didn't have to fight it anymore. I gave in and surrendered to the horrible feelings and when I surrendered and let them flow through me no matter how bad it become, it quietened my adrenalin. My fear was the culprit. I know it is so hard to trust when your mind is racing but if you don't put second fear into it by saying "Oh my, what if's etc. it does work. It takes time and acceptance of the feelings. As soon as you hear yourself saying those words "Oh my, what if, etc. you have started the adrenalin flow thus the cycle. You get the first fear but you can stop second fear. There will be times as soon as your nerves are not so sensitized you will feel good again. It's so hard to not believe that there is not something else doing this to us. In reality we are doing it to ourselves. That is after all the medical trips to the doctors office have told us we are normal. One day at a time and sometimes one moment at a time. Blessings!