help - Anxiety Message Board

werner · 09-12-2003, 10:39 AM

anxiety has been wrecking my life for three months, i feel, lately. that i am less anxious, but i still can't stop my mind from just wandering, evaluating everything, all the time, i feel afraid that i am not the person i used to be, and everything is stuck in this dreamy confusion obsessive state forever, is this a product of anxiety ?

rozana · 09-13-2003, 08:14 PM

YES,
it definately sounds like anxiety. It's very scary but the more you dwell on it the worse it gets. I know it's easy to say not to worry about it, but you'll see that when you stop obsessing over it, the easier it'll get.
I know that as soon as I start to worry about anything, my anxiety goes through the roof and the physical symptoms are what's really scary for me. It's just a vicious circle.
I ended up in hospital 4 times and every time I was told it's anxiety, which I dismissed because it felt so real, like there was something terribly wrong with me. But when I think about it now, I realise that I was under a lot of stress when all of this started.

Anxiety shows itself in many physical ways, so it's hard for us to believe that it IS ONLY ANXIETY because we get convinced that it's something else, something horrible.
But don't worry. You are not alone and you will get over it. I'm in the process of getting over it too.
Just stay positive and try not to worry.
Did you have a check up anyway?
I did, everything was fine, and still I obsess over it (which is what anxiety will do to you!!!) So, I made another appointment this week.
Let me know how you go!

werner · 09-14-2003, 07:01 AM

hi
the physical symptoms don't bother me so much, in my case, it seems more phsycological. as soon as i started feeling strange, three months ago, my mind just started racing, the same thoughts over and over again, trying to figure out what was wrong, making appointments with ent's, allergists, having bloodwork done,brain scan, etc etc. all the tests have come back ok, but my mind is still stuck on this, i feel like i'll be obsessing over it until i feel normal again, then i think, oh wait, i won't feel normal until i stop obsessing. ridiculous.
anyway, it's very very difficult and upsetting, everything i used to take for granted now seems strange, or challenging, like i'm a stranger in my own life, in the world. i feel better while i'm distracted or engaged in something, but the worry and obsession is still there in the back of my mind. and the second i'm alone with my thoughts, it all comes flooding back.
i just wish this never started, i mis myself and the life i had.

cattys · 09-14-2003, 10:19 AM

Hang in there werner. You will get yourself and your life back.

I know how the thoughts one minute sound ridiculous then the next they feel so real. I get this way from time to time everything around me just feels not real. you had all those test just keep telling yourself that you are ok this is all irrational thinking. write your fears down on paper and maybe you will see how irrational they really are after seeing them on paper.

you'll be ok this will pass.

good luck