Moggy

Hi everyone,

I've had quite bad anxiety for about 2 years, and within the last 12 months inparticular, the syptoms have gotten worse and aren't getting any better.

I used to be a really outgoing and loud person and I still feel I have that in me, it's just like this symbiote inside me takes over whenever I get in a social environment and I am reduced to a quivering wreck. I used to be able to hide this at some point but now I try to avoid social situations because the effects are now so physical.

These are some of my symptoms when talking/around people:

-shakey, very rigid around the neck and shoulders (feel like my neck is grinding when I move it)
-mouth feels quite numb and dry
-throat locks up and I feel like I'm choking, feel like I have to hold my breath sometimes
-feel very awkward while walking for some bizarre reason, try to avoid walking because the feeling is so bad which isn't good. This awkwardness makes my anxiety go throught the roof, feel like everyone is watching me. When I walk around town by myself it's just unbearable, I feel like my legs could crumble at the knees at any given moment.
-hard to smile sometimes because of the symptoms, a lot of expressive emotion seems forced instead of natural.

Not too good huh? :P On top of that, I've been diagnosed with a chronic illness 3 months ago and am under heavy medication for that. The funny thing is, it's not that that bothers me at all, it's the anxiety because it's stopping me from being myself.

I've tried taking aropax in the past for a couple of months and that did nothing at all, can anyone please offer some advice before I totally shut myself off from society. Any advice would be greatly appreciated.