Re: Still in very severe pain 14 months after fusion surgery so depressed.
Hi Sparky121 - I fully understand your pain. 11 years ago I had a fusion at L4-5 level. At the time, my doctor told me I had a mild herniation at the level above this but felt it wasn't bad enough to do a fusion. I did fine for 8 years and then 3 years ago, I bent down to get something off the floor of my car and I haven't been the same since. My boss sent me to a doctor he uses in some of his cases and he put me through another MRI and x-rays. The results is that I also have sciatica, nerve clumping and arachnoiditis. Arachnoiditis is rare and doctors do not talk about it - because there is no cure for it. I get my info on that on the internet. When I had my surgery, my doctor told me that I can never have another surgery. This of course was 11 years ago and technology has changed so much. This new doctor told me he did not recommend additional surgery at this time and to "tolerate" it as long as I can. Then we will start again with the steriod shots and go from there. I have good days and bad days. Unfortunately this past weekend I had bad days and it's continuing to today. I get the electric shocks in my low back and the pain in my hip and leg. I cannot get any comfort. I also go to a pain doctor and I am on pain meds. Have been for 3 years now. I get to where I'm so sick of taking the pain meds and also, I feel they do not work anymore. I can only take so much at work, which is another reason they don't help anymore. This morning I decided to call to make an appointment with this new doctor to start the process again - meaning the shots and go from there. His next available appointment is June 5th!!! Needless to say I am super depressed. My house is a mess because I cannot do any housework. I mean I can do a little but not enough to say my house is clean. My husband does what he can to help but I feel bad about putting it all on him. My husband and I talk about me going on disability but we all know what that entails and how long it takes to get on it. Plus, I have good days and when I do I feel that I should continue to work as long as I can, but it's hard to do. I really don't want to lose my job but it's difficult to come in when I'm feeling so horrible. I'm a legal assistant and I sit a lot which is one of the worst things to do in my situation. Good luck and keep in touch. I'm hear to listen and share.