well i did it. i made it through my third day -no pain pills. the last few hours i didnt even dwell on it. i want to thank everyone for the encouragement. i dont think i can do this-i KNOW I CAN. PLEASE PRAY FOR ME.

Hi Deerme...Congrats on another day pill free http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/smile.gif Thats wonderful!! Just keep thinking of your wonderful encouraging family and this will be a cakewalk for you. I will be praying for you.

Autumn.

see...positive thoughts really do help. 3 days down and the rest of a life free to look forward to...just keep saying that when it gets hard. I have been and even though I am on 6 hours sleep in 3 days I keep saying that. even if it gets tougher in the next day or so, I will get through it. I think it starts getting better after about 3-4 days. but even if it takes 2 weeks...we well be alright. proud of ya.

peace

tim

Deerme . . . good for you! Hang in there and please don't get discouraged if those thoughts of using creep back into your thinking in the next few days. Stay focused on staying clean! You're in my prayers!

DEERME AND TIM CONGRADULATIONS TO YOU BOTH, YOU ARE DOING SO GREAT, I AM SO PROUD OF YOU. I AM ONE WEEK CLEAN OF VICODINS. STILL TAKE 3 DARVOCETS A DAY FOR THE TERRIBLE BACKPAIN, BUT I WAS TAKING AT LEAST 10-15 VICS A DAY, I THINK THIS IS A SUCCESS IN MY EYES. DON'T GIVE UP, YOU WILL FEEL SO MUCH BETTER ONCE YOU KICK THIS ONCE AND FOR ALL. GOD BLESS!!

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Congrats to you as well South...thats great you have done this as well. Deerme and Tim how are you both today? Let us know ok?
Autumn.

HELLO, DID NOT DO SO GOOD TODAY. I HAD TERRIBLE PAIN IN MY SHOULDER LAST NIGHT, COULDNT SLEEP. USED MY TENS UNIT, TOOK ALEVE, ICE. I ENDED UP BUMMING 2 LORTABS OFF MY MOM. IM NOT GOING TO BEAT MYSELF UP OVER THIS. I DID NOT TAKE THEM TO GET HIGH. AFTER 5 SHOULDER SURGERIES, I DONT KNOW WHAT ELSE I CAN DO TO CONTROL THE PAIN. I FEEL SOMEWHAT GUILTY. TOMORROW I WILL WAKE UP, TAKE A DEEP BREATH AND GIVE IT ANOTHER GO.

Deerme http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/smile.gif Do not in any way feel guilty for taking meds for pain!!! It is what they are for. You do what feels right for you and no one here at this site judges anyone so dont feel you have to feel guilty explain or justify anything to anyone but yourself and you shouldnt even have to do that if you are relieving pain. Have a wonderful day and I hope you feel better tomorrow http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/smile.gif

Autumn.

THANKS, IGUESS YOURE RIGHT. BUT I FIGURED I HAVE BEEN ASKING FOR HELP, SO I FIGURED I WOULD BE UP-FRONT WITH THE PEOPLE WHO CARED. THANK YOU

Your very welcome...I agree with being upfront but not justifacation unless you want to not feel like you have to.
Maybe I am weird I dunno lol, I just feel asking for help and support doesnt mean we have to justify to anyone if we slip. And the good people here do not expect any explanations. This is the best group of friend I have found these healthboards should get an award I swear. They have made me have faith in human nature again http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/smile.gif Take care Deerme and have a good day.
Autumn.

Deerme . . . today is a new day and all that matters is what you're going to do with it. Don't beat yourself up or shame yourself . . . that will only make you want to use again. Have faith and hope . . . God loves you and will help you through!

deerme,
hopefortoday is right. dont beat yourself up because we totally know what you are going thru. we are not going to jugde you. I am here to support those who need support....not to pummel them when they are down. just pull yourself back up and push on.

PS...to everyone that has helped me through, what I know for a hard fact, the hardes thing I hav ever done in quitting these pills...I say...with all of my heart, THANK YOU. I am still clean, feel good today. Physical symptoms are almost all gone(besides a few hot flashes and easy fatigue) I am pushing on, have not one mental or physical desire to look at a bottle of pills. I have almost kiled myself and others with this addiction, and even if it takes me continuing my NA meeting forever, I have touched my last pill to get high. I have mental clarity right now that I have not had in 8 years...and that is so good to have. It will take some time to learn how to live normal again, but I am just begging to start that part of my life and now I can say goodbye to the life I lived. The life controlled by something other that myself. I will be here to support anyone who needs it, and hopefully I can help someone as much as you all have helped me......Again, Thank You.

Tim