my husband is literally driving me crazier than i already am. i just had the perfect opportunity to tell him that i am going to withdrawals and wimped out. i know i can't tell him even though it is so tempting. he is not the understanding type...especially when it comes to drug use. he is a very irrational person anyway. i basically just hate life today. monkey on my back is ranting and raving and doing a big 'ol dance today. i feel like i am weakening by the second. i just don't want to feel like this anymore. why aren't i getting any better??? and what is normal for that matter....normal to me used to be getting high on pills....

Originally posted by lisaaahubb:
[B]my husband is literally driving me crazier than i already am. i just had the perfect opportunity to tell him that i am going to withdrawals and wimped out. i know i can't tell him even though it is so tempting. he is not the understanding type...especially when it comes to drug use. B]


Whenever I think that my husbadn is going to freak out and not understand...I get myself into this frenzy and I make it much worse. When I finally do tell him he doesn't react in the way I thought he would, in fact, he is always surprising me that way. Give it a try...you might be surprised....if he loves you he should want to help you. You can't know what he is going to say.....and even if he does react negatively, well at least it's one less thing to worry about(hiding it from him I mean)But if you think he is going to become physically abusive then, why don;t you go with your sister when she comes for the kids? Oh, I wish I could help you.

Iris

You can do it... I know i sucks. I have a very icky, ex husband who is the same way. You can make it though. He has no idea that you are addicted?>? God can give you the strength to tell him. I will be praying fo ryou.

I too will pray for you. I can only say please stay strong. Even if you are at your weakest and think there is no end in sight, you know realisticly that it will get better. It wont go on foever. Think of how much better you feel once you are out of this mess. Stay strong and I will pray.

Peace
Tim

Lisa...I am so sorry my friend that you are having such a bad day and that husband of yours sounds like my father http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/frown.gif I am 42 and still have to explain to him why I take pain meds I have xrays , tests had surgery before and he thinks I can "wing" it without painkillers even though I am under the treatment of a pain specialist that says its nerve pain and I will be on them the rest of my life. I hang out here at the addiction board because I have detoxed alot before on my own and because I wanted off these things so I offer what advice I can.
And I always thought the physical WD were over in 5 to 7 days the 3rd and 4th day being the worst. Your husband and your un happy marriage is hindering your will to detox and thats not good. You are a strong girl for even coming this far so I feel you can make it the rest of the way but please be careful what you posted this morning scared me and I cant believe no one but me as far as I know commented on your husband choking you!!! This is NOT your fault and he has NO right. Being in an abusive marriage myself 18 years ago my ex almost killed me. So I hope the good members here understand that if you tell him he might go off on you and thats why you are afraid. And there is a chance he might take the baby if you tell him too. So because he is an abusive person I for one understand why you cant tell him. Please dont listen to that monkey on your back either ok? Show him you are stronger that he is!!!! I will check back with you later.

Autumn.

I have been on Ultram (pain medication) for 8 years. I went thru detox a couple of years ago but did not stay off of them. My husband discovered I was on them again and this time I knew I had to quit. He has been so great and supportive but I also knew my marriage was in jeopardy. I have been off of them now for 12 days. I am finally beginning to sleep a little but am pretty depressed. Just wanted to say it is tough every day but I know it will be okay one day. I see a drug and alcohol councelor once a week and have found an all womens NA meeting too. Every little bit of support helps. Good Luck.

Carissa,

Congrats on 12 days, I am on my 8th day. I am glad to hear that the sleep situation gets better, that is my main problem. You were strong enough to get off of them and deserve an applause for that..the good thing is that realisticlly we know that we wont feel this way forever. Each day gets better and better. I have not had the depression part but was very emotional the first few days of detoxing. I was also on pills for 8 years, and after 8 years using, I know we cant expect our bodies to re-adjust in only a week or two...it will take time but does it not feel good to be our from under the control of them? I feels very good for me. Again, good job and congrats on your 12 days.

Peace

Tim

You don't have to tell your husband jack. And if you do, he can take it or leave it. You're an individual and who is anyone to judge? What will change if you tell him? Another problem to drive you back to the drugs. Try to do what you need to do regardless of him. My humble and expert (old lady) opinion.

Hi Tim,
Thanks for the encouragement. I actually have slept the last couple of nights so I know it is getting better. I do still feel like I am grieving the loss of a friend even though the friend was not so good for me. I went to my NA meeting last night and had lots of folks to tell me it does get better. So, both of us should hold onto that. Hope you continue to do well. You have the right attitude and that is more than half the battle, I think. Keep me posted on how you are doing.

Carissa