Its been a while since i've been here..not that long..but too long for me..i thought i had won the battle. Well..i've been on and off for the last couple of weeks..and its killing me again to admit it to anyone. Other than one friend who helped me detox..noone knows i've relapsed. The thing is..since my first relapse..i'll go 5 days or more without..and then back on for 2 then off for 5 or 6 then back...just a constant circle. Im sick of being sick..i've been reading here to help and all over the net trying to get myself well...but the only thing that seems to help is coming clean on the board..and getting support from others. I just cant tell my family and handle thier shock and confusion as well as my own depression..too much. Anyway..i'd like to say hey to those who helped me before..and im gonna be posting again as i give it another shot.

Brett

hey brett-
welcome back!
laney

Thanks Laney...like my addiction, i wanted to leave this place behind..i guess i just left to soon.

Brett...its been a while since I have seen a post from you. Let be honest...I think it is a good idea that after you get clean you stick around the board. It helps me a great deal to be able to talk with and help out people going through what I had went through. I was going to NA meetings, but they were not for me. Everyone is different and NA works for alot of people, I just feel more comfortable coming on this board. Its alright to fail, as long as you try again, right. Welcome back.

Brett . . . I'm glad you're back. My husband's DOC is Oxycontin and he's been fighting it for 5-6 years. He was actually clean for almost a year and a half and has been doing exactly what you're doing since October. He says he gets to day 5 of the withdrawals and has to use again. He came clean this weekend with me and his sponsor and is ready to try and get sober again.

His doctor started him on SUBOXONE today. You might want to check this out. There's a lot of info. on the Internet and check to see if there's an addictionologist in your area who can prescribe this. It's supposed to help with WDs and cravings and (I think) replace the opiates you've been taking. Almost like an anti-depressant. Anyway . . . hang in there and God bless you!

Welcome back Brett...I am finally doing the taper thing I am down to 6 from 8. So I will be joining you on the detox real soon. Take care and God Bless.

Autumn.

What up B,

Wow, great minds think alike...again. Ive been having a rough day too and to top it all my internet service crapped out on me at work so i couldn't come here or get back to you. I also have to admit to everybody here i had a college reunion with all my buddies and whacked an 80...then there were some hydros floating around and several made it to my hands. Time to come clean to you all. Im not feeling too bad physically but the cravings are driving me insane as Im clean again. Sorry to let you all down, but i have to be honest. Im grouchy as hell, depressed, moody, etc. Sorry i havent posted in a while. Hope you all are doing well and being strong. Just needed to get some support. Take care all

-Ry

Racing . . . you didn't let anyone down. Those pills are soooo seductive and powerful. Hang tough and do your best!

racing...there you are. Hey Hope is right, you did not let anyone down. Hang in there. I am glad to hear from you.

Hi Brett, don't know you well....

But I'm having a real hard time as well right now ...

You take care


Kitty

Hey Brett, glad to see you're back, I have found that this board helps like nothing else!! Just keep trying and hang in there! Hey Autum, hows the tappering going for ya, are you feeling ok? Hey Perc, you hang in there too!! Has anyone heard from Okieatheart, I know she has been having a hard time.