HRevero
04-22-2003, 11:29 PM
Pancho what's going on? We have not heard from you in a few days, I hope you are feeling okay.
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justpancho
04-25-2003, 05:17 AM
Heya Heather! Sorry I've been gone for a few days. I found this job posted on a website last weekend and I've been furiously trying to get all my information together for them so I could apply. I took three days off and have literally been working about 18 hours a day creating a website to showcase my work. I had everything completed about an hour ago, but now a friend is reporting yet another error that I have to fix. *sigh* It's a job that I probably won't get (dream job) but I thought I'd at least give it a try.
I've missed you and the others so much this week though. I've thought about yall so often and kept you all in my prayers. Heather.. I've been wondering if you're doing better now that your pt is back in town. I hope so!! Please give me an update!
I still haven't read through all the posts.. just skimmed a few. I did read cheryl's heartbreaking post about mike's mri. *tear* Cheryl keep fighting. I know it's so hard to keep going but you are the driving force that will heal him. It will happen. Hang in there sweetie!
Sounds as if Autumn is having a hard time too. YOU NEED TO DO YOUR EXERCISES dangit! Don't make us send jill over there to kick you in the booty!
to those i've missed.. i apologize. Once I email the company tomorrow, I'll have much more time to catch up. As far as I go.. my tmj symptoms are pretty much the same as last week. My voice comes and goes. I can still pull on my earlobe and it will pop. The swelling in my face has improved somewhat but some of it has seemed to have moved to right below my eyes. I'm taking my meds without a hitch and if I forget I pay for it later. It seems as if I am controlling the symptoms from getting worse, but at the same time I'm not improving either. I'm trying to come to terms with the fact that the hearing loss in my left ear is permanent. *sigh*
Anyways.. I'll update more tomorrow.. but for now.. here is my main man who always makes me smile http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/blob_fire.gif
panch
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I've missed you and the others so much this week though. I've thought about yall so often and kept you all in my prayers. Heather.. I've been wondering if you're doing better now that your pt is back in town. I hope so!! Please give me an update!
I still haven't read through all the posts.. just skimmed a few. I did read cheryl's heartbreaking post about mike's mri. *tear* Cheryl keep fighting. I know it's so hard to keep going but you are the driving force that will heal him. It will happen. Hang in there sweetie!
Sounds as if Autumn is having a hard time too. YOU NEED TO DO YOUR EXERCISES dangit! Don't make us send jill over there to kick you in the booty!
to those i've missed.. i apologize. Once I email the company tomorrow, I'll have much more time to catch up. As far as I go.. my tmj symptoms are pretty much the same as last week. My voice comes and goes. I can still pull on my earlobe and it will pop. The swelling in my face has improved somewhat but some of it has seemed to have moved to right below my eyes. I'm taking my meds without a hitch and if I forget I pay for it later. It seems as if I am controlling the symptoms from getting worse, but at the same time I'm not improving either. I'm trying to come to terms with the fact that the hearing loss in my left ear is permanent. *sigh*
Anyways.. I'll update more tomorrow.. but for now.. here is my main man who always makes me smile http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/blob_fire.gif
panch
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[This message has been edited by justpancho (edited 05-02-2003).]
HRevero
04-25-2003, 10:52 AM
Hey Panch I was wondering what happened to you!!!!
I wrote you back in page 2 -How is everyone feeling today.
This week I have been so tired to do anything. I have kind of kept a low key around here. My sister and I ahd it out on Weds.. She lives some distance from me, but she is having a lot of issues out where she lives. We are not that close, in fact, because I did not invite my mother to our wedding I have been disowned from the family all together. I had my reasons one of them is I don't speak to her and I have not in some time. Now, my mother is pretty sick with fibro, and my sister would like me to do someting to help. But, when my mother and I get together we make each other worse. I refuse to do that. I have been tense about this whole thing. Whne I am apart from my mom, i don't hate her i can actually focus on teh good times that we have had, which were very few. My sister claims that she does not feel resentment towards me for not helping out, but i think she does. The way that she words things gives her away. I would love to help her out, but she is in a different state then I am in.
Anyways, I am doing okay over here. I am trying to take it one day at a time. I have not been able to really plan things, because everyday I feel different. People seem to try to understand.
So, is singing Mary Had A Little Lamb, a requirement for this job that you are applying for?????
I hope you get it, you do know that dreams come true right?
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I wrote you back in page 2 -How is everyone feeling today.
This week I have been so tired to do anything. I have kind of kept a low key around here. My sister and I ahd it out on Weds.. She lives some distance from me, but she is having a lot of issues out where she lives. We are not that close, in fact, because I did not invite my mother to our wedding I have been disowned from the family all together. I had my reasons one of them is I don't speak to her and I have not in some time. Now, my mother is pretty sick with fibro, and my sister would like me to do someting to help. But, when my mother and I get together we make each other worse. I refuse to do that. I have been tense about this whole thing. Whne I am apart from my mom, i don't hate her i can actually focus on teh good times that we have had, which were very few. My sister claims that she does not feel resentment towards me for not helping out, but i think she does. The way that she words things gives her away. I would love to help her out, but she is in a different state then I am in.
Anyways, I am doing okay over here. I am trying to take it one day at a time. I have not been able to really plan things, because everyday I feel different. People seem to try to understand.
So, is singing Mary Had A Little Lamb, a requirement for this job that you are applying for?????
I hope you get it, you do know that dreams come true right?
Heather http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/blob_fire.gif
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CherylLynn24
04-25-2003, 03:42 PM
panch,
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Cheryl
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Cheryl
HRevero
04-26-2003, 01:30 PM
You said it Cheryl!!!!
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justpancho
04-27-2003, 06:16 AM
Thanks Cheryl and Heather for your kind replies and continued support. I'm so glad I found you two. I hope that all of us can get better in time.
Heather.. whew. FIRST and foremost you HAVE to look out for yourself right now. I know that family crap can stress you out, but you aren't in a position to be stressed out about it. You need to heal yourself first! I know its hard, but letting them get to you is only going to make you tense your jaw up more and make yourself worse. AND I don't want to see that happen to you.
It sounds as if your sister needs to be a little more understanding of what you are going through too. I know I don't know all of what you've been through with your family.. but c'mon. You are in a lot of pain and she is just causing you more!
I'm glad that you can now remember some of the good things with your mom. My mom and I had it out a few years ago when I lived near her. She was going through menopause and changed totally for a while. She said some really nasty stuff to me during that time period. Like the one day when she looked at me at dinnertime and said 'You know.. I don't think you'll make a very good mom one day. You just don't have the right personality for it. You should really try for a good career instead'. That still stays with me even today. I was also living with this guy who was a wonderful guy, but one that I wasn't in love with anymore. I had to get away.. so I met this guy on the net and three months later I moved halfway across the country to be with him. (we are still together). My mom tried to be so understanding about it, but I couldn't bring myself to tell her that I had to get away from her. She got me back by throwing away all the stuff from my childhood... the stuff that I wanted to one day share with my kids. Now though.. it's great. Our relationship is better than ever, but it took a long time to get here. Time for us healed the old wounds.
I certainly have no idea what the problems are with your mom. It sounds as if you've had it pretty rough with her. At the same time though it sounds as if you still care for her.. and want her to be healthy and happy. If you really feel that being with her will only make the two of you worse then I think that you should go with your gut instinct. But you might consider maybe writing her a letter saying something to the affect that you have been thinking about her and wish that she were feeling better. I dunno.. maybe a stupid idea. I just thought it might make you feel better. I worry about you.. and all this life stuff seems to get in your way so much. I want you to get better, but others are holding you back somewhat. You have to deal with doctors and specialists and pain and family (and of course SECRETARIES!) ... it's too much to bear for someone who just wants to feel better.
I kind of know how you feel though. My boyfriend and I have had it out a lot lately. I cry so often. The tears just cause fluid backup and make my symptoms so much worse. I want so much for us to get along, but it just seems as if we can't 'get it together'. Now we are both faced with losing our jobs in the next couple of months and I'm half scared out of my wits as I know in this small town I won't be able to find a job with my qualifications. Which means we'll be moving but we have no idea where we are going. This job I applied for I probably won't get. I wish that I would, but they are probably looking for someone with more experience. and no hahah singing the little lamb story is not required! BAahahhahahah that still makes me laugh. The job would be a writing job.. which as you can probably tell from my long winded posts.. I really love to do. I have a degree .. and I have experience, but the problem is that my experience is in so many different areas. I'm not really 'qualified' for any one thing, but I'm semi-qualified for a lot of things.
I guess like you I have to take things one day at a time. The next few months will bring so many changes. I have to give it all to God too which seems so hard some days. I know it'll all work out and for the tmj daily pain I just keep repeating 'this too shall pass'. Some days it's the only thing keeping me going.
Hang in there Heather girl and let me know how your xrays go on monday! *hug*
panch
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Heather.. whew. FIRST and foremost you HAVE to look out for yourself right now. I know that family crap can stress you out, but you aren't in a position to be stressed out about it. You need to heal yourself first! I know its hard, but letting them get to you is only going to make you tense your jaw up more and make yourself worse. AND I don't want to see that happen to you.
It sounds as if your sister needs to be a little more understanding of what you are going through too. I know I don't know all of what you've been through with your family.. but c'mon. You are in a lot of pain and she is just causing you more!
I'm glad that you can now remember some of the good things with your mom. My mom and I had it out a few years ago when I lived near her. She was going through menopause and changed totally for a while. She said some really nasty stuff to me during that time period. Like the one day when she looked at me at dinnertime and said 'You know.. I don't think you'll make a very good mom one day. You just don't have the right personality for it. You should really try for a good career instead'. That still stays with me even today. I was also living with this guy who was a wonderful guy, but one that I wasn't in love with anymore. I had to get away.. so I met this guy on the net and three months later I moved halfway across the country to be with him. (we are still together). My mom tried to be so understanding about it, but I couldn't bring myself to tell her that I had to get away from her. She got me back by throwing away all the stuff from my childhood... the stuff that I wanted to one day share with my kids. Now though.. it's great. Our relationship is better than ever, but it took a long time to get here. Time for us healed the old wounds.
I certainly have no idea what the problems are with your mom. It sounds as if you've had it pretty rough with her. At the same time though it sounds as if you still care for her.. and want her to be healthy and happy. If you really feel that being with her will only make the two of you worse then I think that you should go with your gut instinct. But you might consider maybe writing her a letter saying something to the affect that you have been thinking about her and wish that she were feeling better. I dunno.. maybe a stupid idea. I just thought it might make you feel better. I worry about you.. and all this life stuff seems to get in your way so much. I want you to get better, but others are holding you back somewhat. You have to deal with doctors and specialists and pain and family (and of course SECRETARIES!) ... it's too much to bear for someone who just wants to feel better.
I kind of know how you feel though. My boyfriend and I have had it out a lot lately. I cry so often. The tears just cause fluid backup and make my symptoms so much worse. I want so much for us to get along, but it just seems as if we can't 'get it together'. Now we are both faced with losing our jobs in the next couple of months and I'm half scared out of my wits as I know in this small town I won't be able to find a job with my qualifications. Which means we'll be moving but we have no idea where we are going. This job I applied for I probably won't get. I wish that I would, but they are probably looking for someone with more experience. and no hahah singing the little lamb story is not required! BAahahhahahah that still makes me laugh. The job would be a writing job.. which as you can probably tell from my long winded posts.. I really love to do. I have a degree .. and I have experience, but the problem is that my experience is in so many different areas. I'm not really 'qualified' for any one thing, but I'm semi-qualified for a lot of things.
I guess like you I have to take things one day at a time. The next few months will bring so many changes. I have to give it all to God too which seems so hard some days. I know it'll all work out and for the tmj daily pain I just keep repeating 'this too shall pass'. Some days it's the only thing keeping me going.
Hang in there Heather girl and let me know how your xrays go on monday! *hug*
panch
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p-nacho
05-02-2003, 05:08 AM
*bump*