CuriousMe4200
10-03-2003, 11:49 AM
I can't stand it anymore!!! I'm soo stupid about all this. I cant stop eating. Whenever i'm hungry I would convince myself that I'm ok and that b/c of this meal I wont gain weight. And I would mean to eat a little meail but end up stuffing my face with all this food!!! and afterwards I would kick myself in the ass for doing it and feel soo ugly and fat and unattractive. This happenes every day, day after day. Sometimes I would not eat the whole day, but then at night I'd stuff myself. I;ve made myself throw up couple times, which I know isnt good. I mean to eat little every time I eat, but I just CANT STOP MYSELF! I hate it.. I see it in my body, I feel aweful!! what do i do??? This guilty conscious is kelling me!!! I dont know what else to do. I'm not overweight, but thats the problem!!! I dhate the way I look but no matter how hard I try NOTHING HELPS!!!! I'm constanlty back and forth with "ok, I dont care, I look fine. There are lots of people out there struggling with overweight problems, I should be ashamed with myself" and the next minute: "I'm fat, I wanto t be skinny, I'm ugly' !! I cant do this anymore, how do I stop!!!!!
please help.....
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jennielynn
10-03-2003, 11:54 AM
Curious: sounds like you could use some professional help; especially if you are making yourself throw up after eating. There are lots of free hotlines you can call for resources. If you don't mind my asking; what are your stats: height, weight, age, and so on. I'm not sure if anyone here can help you; but we'd like to try. But, please; if you think this is a problem like an eating disorder~~~get the help you need before you really hurt yourself! you just don't realize what purging alone can do to your body!
We're here for you!
Jen
We're here for you!
Jen
noelle23
10-03-2003, 01:12 PM
Hi Courious,
I suffer from anorexia and bulemia. Althought I am overweight now, I was anorexic and bulemic in high school. I'm 23 years old and it's been 6 years since I've been super thin. This disease sticks with your forever. A lot of people say I look good, but that's not what I see!! I completely understand how you feel when you say after you eat you feel ugly and fat.. I feel that way all to often. I'm constantly dieting and still sometimes to laxatives.I work out all the time...it's a addiction!! My best advice speaking from personal experience do not let your self get to the point you need to be hospitalized. Stop the madness now,just introduce your self to healthier foods and use fruits and veggies as snacks.. Carbohydrates are my best friends.. just watch your intake on those! and start exercise regemin.. you'll maintain you weight, when you get hungry when you shouldn't be, drink some water or a diet pop. Also there are some fat blocker pills on the market and carb blockers. try some of them.
Good luck to you!
I suffer from anorexia and bulemia. Althought I am overweight now, I was anorexic and bulemic in high school. I'm 23 years old and it's been 6 years since I've been super thin. This disease sticks with your forever. A lot of people say I look good, but that's not what I see!! I completely understand how you feel when you say after you eat you feel ugly and fat.. I feel that way all to often. I'm constantly dieting and still sometimes to laxatives.I work out all the time...it's a addiction!! My best advice speaking from personal experience do not let your self get to the point you need to be hospitalized. Stop the madness now,just introduce your self to healthier foods and use fruits and veggies as snacks.. Carbohydrates are my best friends.. just watch your intake on those! and start exercise regemin.. you'll maintain you weight, when you get hungry when you shouldn't be, drink some water or a diet pop. Also there are some fat blocker pills on the market and carb blockers. try some of them.
Good luck to you!
noelle23
10-03-2003, 01:13 PM
Hi Courious,
I suffer from anorexia and bulemia. Althought I am overweight now, I was anorexic and bulemic in high school. I'm 23 years old and it's been 6 years since I've been super thin. This disease sticks with your forever. A lot of people say I look good, but that's not what I see!! I completely understand how you feel when you say after you eat you feel ugly and fat.. I feel that way all to often. I'm constantly dieting and still sometimes to laxatives.I work out all the time...it's a addiction!! My best advice speaking from personal experience do not let your self get to the point you need to be hospitalized. Stop the madness now,just introduce your self to healthier foods and use fruits and veggies as snacks.. Carbohydrates are my best friends.. just watch your intake on those! and start exercise regemin.. you'll maintain you weight, when you get hungry when you shouldn't be, drink some water or a diet pop. Also there are some fat blocker pills on the market and carb blockers. try some of them.
Good luck to you!
I suffer from anorexia and bulemia. Althought I am overweight now, I was anorexic and bulemic in high school. I'm 23 years old and it's been 6 years since I've been super thin. This disease sticks with your forever. A lot of people say I look good, but that's not what I see!! I completely understand how you feel when you say after you eat you feel ugly and fat.. I feel that way all to often. I'm constantly dieting and still sometimes to laxatives.I work out all the time...it's a addiction!! My best advice speaking from personal experience do not let your self get to the point you need to be hospitalized. Stop the madness now,just introduce your self to healthier foods and use fruits and veggies as snacks.. Carbohydrates are my best friends.. just watch your intake on those! and start exercise regemin.. you'll maintain you weight, when you get hungry when you shouldn't be, drink some water or a diet pop. Also there are some fat blocker pills on the market and carb blockers. try some of them.
Good luck to you!
noelle23
10-03-2003, 01:14 PM
Hi Courious,
I suffer from anorexia and bulemia. Althought I am overweight now, I was anorexic and bulemic in high school. I'm 23 years old and it's been 6 years since I've been super thin. This disease sticks with your forever. A lot of people say I look good, but that's not what I see!! I completely understand how you feel when you say after you eat you feel ugly and fat.. I feel that way all to often. I'm constantly dieting and still sometimes to laxatives.I work out all the time...it's a addiction!! My best advice speaking from personal experience do not let your self get to the point you need to be hospitalized. Stop the madness now,just introduce your self to healthier foods and use fruits and veggies as snacks.. Carbohydrates are my best friends.. just watch your intake on those! and start exercise regemin.. you'll maintain you weight, when you get hungry when you shouldn't be, drink some water or a diet pop. Also there are some fat blocker pills on the market and carb blockers. try some of them.
Good luck to you!
I suffer from anorexia and bulemia. Althought I am overweight now, I was anorexic and bulemic in high school. I'm 23 years old and it's been 6 years since I've been super thin. This disease sticks with your forever. A lot of people say I look good, but that's not what I see!! I completely understand how you feel when you say after you eat you feel ugly and fat.. I feel that way all to often. I'm constantly dieting and still sometimes to laxatives.I work out all the time...it's a addiction!! My best advice speaking from personal experience do not let your self get to the point you need to be hospitalized. Stop the madness now,just introduce your self to healthier foods and use fruits and veggies as snacks.. Carbohydrates are my best friends.. just watch your intake on those! and start exercise regemin.. you'll maintain you weight, when you get hungry when you shouldn't be, drink some water or a diet pop. Also there are some fat blocker pills on the market and carb blockers. try some of them.
Good luck to you!
CuriousMe4200
10-03-2003, 03:34 PM
Guys, thank you soo much for the support! I'm starting to realize that it is an addiction, I'm addicted to the gym, to the food and its driving me crazy!! But i cant even talk to my doctor, he'll look at me and laugh. Its pathetic! You guys are great, dont know what I would do without you! I wish you all the best
noelle23
10-04-2003, 12:10 AM
Curious,
If you think your doctor will laugh, maybe you need to talk to a differant one! Talking to close friends and family help too!!
Good luck!!
If you think your doctor will laugh, maybe you need to talk to a differant one! Talking to close friends and family help too!!
Good luck!!
flamejobgrrl
10-04-2003, 12:37 AM
I have had similar things happen when I go to the doctor - they don't take our concerns seriously and it just makes you feel so small as a person and stupid.
I agree with Noelle - if your doctor doesn't listen to your plee and offer some advise, get a new doctor - or ask to be referred to someone who specializes in this field. You deserve to be listened to and offered the help you need - so stand tall and get that help! You can do it!
I agree with Noelle - if your doctor doesn't listen to your plee and offer some advise, get a new doctor - or ask to be referred to someone who specializes in this field. You deserve to be listened to and offered the help you need - so stand tall and get that help! You can do it!