I posted new topic because I really want you to no it's okay. Every one here has been through it one why or another. If your family is as important as you say then tell them most likely they will stick by you. see if your job has insuance to cover you going in to rehabilitation. If not see if you can take a leave of absents they have programs you do not have to pay for. Is their any one you can borrow money from to get you through a program? But remember the program will only work if you what it and you have to want it as you want to live Things get bad some times but useing allways leads to more probelems. no way around that. I've never been addicted to pills so I do not know what the withdraw is like but my herion withdraw was bad I mean bad I used over 5yrs stright with out a break can't even tell you how much I used a day but it was enough to kill an elephant. 18 days no sleep kat naps 10min here 10 mins there couldn't eat leggs hurt so bad I wanted to cut them off. and I did it cold turkey It just was'nt worth what I had to do to get it or the life I was liveing. It is the most important thing to this day in my life and god or the goddess will not give you nothing you can not handle I Promise!!!!!!
if you need to talk I'll be back on monday.
Bright Blessings
Stacey