matty16
04-15-2003, 08:32 AM
OK here it go's
I've had a very bad school life, thrown out of 2 for bad behaviour mainly because of the bulling.I'm not going to go into that to much because i no longer suffer from bullys.Afder being thown out of two schools i was put into another in my year9.I again found it hard to make friends and got bullyed again and again.My personality changed in my nith year, instead of being a quiet boy i started being very bad because i was not getting any help from the teachers from the bullying i was suffering.I kicked off ne day i chucked a chair at a teacher.They then thought that mabye i had something wrong with me so someone decided to put me into a 6 week lockup at alder hay hospital.I had a scan where they put you though a machine and 1 where thet stick probes onto your head.I was told that there was nothing wrong with me but to this day i think that they could be lying.The question i would like to no is that, can they not tel you if u have somthing wrong with u?
I've had a very bad school life, thrown out of 2 for bad behaviour mainly because of the bulling.I'm not going to go into that to much because i no longer suffer from bullys.Afder being thown out of two schools i was put into another in my year9.I again found it hard to make friends and got bullyed again and again.My personality changed in my nith year, instead of being a quiet boy i started being very bad because i was not getting any help from the teachers from the bullying i was suffering.I kicked off ne day i chucked a chair at a teacher.They then thought that mabye i had something wrong with me so someone decided to put me into a 6 week lockup at alder hay hospital.I had a scan where they put you though a machine and 1 where thet stick probes onto your head.I was told that there was nothing wrong with me but to this day i think that they could be lying.The question i would like to no is that, can they not tel you if u have somthing wrong with u?
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zuzu8
04-15-2003, 02:45 PM
Hi matty-
Being bullied at school is one of the most painful and cruel things children or teens can go though.,and unless the school teachers or headmaster intervene properly it just gets worse and worse. No wonder you are so angry (and hurt).
Your rage probably alarmed them and they did a brain scan to make sure there was nothing wrong physically, like a tumor. If they said there was nothing wrong physically, believe them!!!! But emotionally, it sounds like you still feel bad.
If you still feel rage and hurt, or are depressed or anxious, maybe you could go to a psychotherspist to talk about everything that's bothering you.
You'd be amazed how helpful good therapy can be for things like low self-estreem and unresolved anger. Have you thought of trying this route?
zuzu xxxx
[This message has been edited by zuzu8 (edited 04-15-2003).]
Being bullied at school is one of the most painful and cruel things children or teens can go though.,and unless the school teachers or headmaster intervene properly it just gets worse and worse. No wonder you are so angry (and hurt).
Your rage probably alarmed them and they did a brain scan to make sure there was nothing wrong physically, like a tumor. If they said there was nothing wrong physically, believe them!!!! But emotionally, it sounds like you still feel bad.
If you still feel rage and hurt, or are depressed or anxious, maybe you could go to a psychotherspist to talk about everything that's bothering you.
You'd be amazed how helpful good therapy can be for things like low self-estreem and unresolved anger. Have you thought of trying this route?
zuzu xxxx
[This message has been edited by zuzu8 (edited 04-15-2003).]
matty16
04-15-2003, 03:58 PM
Thanks for the reply
I will go down that route, i think it may help.Whats there to lose
Cheers
I will go down that route, i think it may help.Whats there to lose
Cheers
BlackCherry
04-15-2003, 05:49 PM
I was bullied a little at school, but it stopped when i kicked the **** out of a guy and broke hs ribs. (i do NOT reccomend this course of ation - i got into so much **** for it...)
I have a councellor atm, to help me deal with long-term illness and depression. it does help.
At the very least it's a time that's all yours so you can do hatever you want and be selfish for a while, not having to care about what people think of you.
If you're in england you could contact the CLD (youth councelling trust). they're really good and will set you up with someone for as long as you need it.
good luck, Keep shining!
Carrie
xXx
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"The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overcome it"
John, Chapter 1, Verse 5.
shine on and sparkle, without the darkness, how would we define the light??
I have a councellor atm, to help me deal with long-term illness and depression. it does help.
At the very least it's a time that's all yours so you can do hatever you want and be selfish for a while, not having to care about what people think of you.
If you're in england you could contact the CLD (youth councelling trust). they're really good and will set you up with someone for as long as you need it.
good luck, Keep shining!
Carrie
xXx
------------------
"The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overcome it"
John, Chapter 1, Verse 5.
shine on and sparkle, without the darkness, how would we define the light??
BlackCherry
04-15-2003, 05:51 PM
I was bullied a little at school, but it stopped when i kicked the **** out of a guy and broke hs ribs. (i do NOT reccomend this course of ation - i got into so much **** for it...)
I have a councellor atm, to help me deal with long-term illness and depression. it does help.
At the very least it's a time that's all yours so you can do hatever you want and be selfish for a while, not having to care about what people think of you.
If you're in england you could contact the CLD (youth councelling trust). they're really good and will set you up with someone for as long as you need it.
good luck, Keep shining!
Carrie
xXx
------------------
"The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overcome it"
John, Chapter 1, Verse 5.
shine on and sparkle, without the darkness, how would we define the light??
I have a councellor atm, to help me deal with long-term illness and depression. it does help.
At the very least it's a time that's all yours so you can do hatever you want and be selfish for a while, not having to care about what people think of you.
If you're in england you could contact the CLD (youth councelling trust). they're really good and will set you up with someone for as long as you need it.
good luck, Keep shining!
Carrie
xXx
------------------
"The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overcome it"
John, Chapter 1, Verse 5.
shine on and sparkle, without the darkness, how would we define the light??
Samuelemouse
04-16-2003, 01:11 AM
Mate, I would be like you if I had a bad run like you. You are as you perceive yourself to be very often. If you start believing that you are an oddball, it becomes prophetic. The same with believing that you are normal Try it with people who do not know you. I have mixed with all types and acted to fit in. In one sense evryone acts ie it is learnt behaviour. Learn how others behave in different situations and you will fit in but avoid bad company. Accept the fact that you will make some mistakes along the way. People on the whole will accept the odd mistake. I have made some beauties along the way. I was considered to be your type once. You are more normal than you imagine. Imagine taking someone like George Bush and putting him through your experiences. I reckon we would have had World War III long before now if that happened.
matty16
04-16-2003, 10:46 AM
Thanks for the reply
But.....
I do not remeber mentioning that i think i'm a odd ball. think i'm a odd ball then do you?
thanks :(
But.....
I do not remeber mentioning that i think i'm a odd ball. think i'm a odd ball then do you?
thanks :(
matty16
04-16-2003, 12:29 PM
Ok, i'm now very confused because i've had like 5 differnet sides to this not just in this post on the personality post too.I'm gonna write a long story on what i feel, i will then post it onto this thread.
Matty ;)
Matty ;)
zuzu8
04-16-2003, 04:50 PM
Hi matty- I just responded to your post on the Personality Disorders board. Hope you read it.
And yes, it's a good idea to post your story again, since we seem to be confusing you, and keep it all here in this thread on this board so we can keep track of you and know the one place where we can find you! Okay?
And yes, it's a good idea to post your story again, since we seem to be confusing you, and keep it all here in this thread on this board so we can keep track of you and know the one place where we can find you! Okay?
canthelpbeinginlove
04-16-2003, 08:37 PM
Hey Matty,
well, hey there! Let me tell you that you are NOT an oddball...not at all. Let's just say I've been bullied too and it came to the point where I got beat up. But I left that in my past. It took awhile though...this all happened to me in Jr. High. now I'm in highschool..i just turned 17. I still feel like a lil' kid when it comes to making friends. I wish I had the answer to your promblem.but truth is...time will tell. What I mean is, do you have at least a friend b/c let me tell you that...I much rather have one friend that I truly care for and trust than have lots of friends that backstab you. I've been there and done that. I hate when people feel sorry for you( not you i mean this in general). I don't want to get all religious or what not. But do u believe in GOD? I have the perfect answer for you if u want to know about that subject. Personally, I was helped alot...look you don't need professional help...they do all that for the money...do they really care is what I ask myself...hey they get paid for it. well I don't want to go furthur with this unless you wanna talk about it....I'm here for you...Remember, there's always an answer...it's just up to you if you want to receive it....talk to me.....
well, hey there! Let me tell you that you are NOT an oddball...not at all. Let's just say I've been bullied too and it came to the point where I got beat up. But I left that in my past. It took awhile though...this all happened to me in Jr. High. now I'm in highschool..i just turned 17. I still feel like a lil' kid when it comes to making friends. I wish I had the answer to your promblem.but truth is...time will tell. What I mean is, do you have at least a friend b/c let me tell you that...I much rather have one friend that I truly care for and trust than have lots of friends that backstab you. I've been there and done that. I hate when people feel sorry for you( not you i mean this in general). I don't want to get all religious or what not. But do u believe in GOD? I have the perfect answer for you if u want to know about that subject. Personally, I was helped alot...look you don't need professional help...they do all that for the money...do they really care is what I ask myself...hey they get paid for it. well I don't want to go furthur with this unless you wanna talk about it....I'm here for you...Remember, there's always an answer...it's just up to you if you want to receive it....talk to me.....
villagegal68455
04-17-2003, 04:14 AM
i was constantly teased in school (i'm only 4'8", and easy target)......but i did the opposite of you, i became really withdrawn....to this day at age 22, i still think people are constantly whispering behind my back and i take great care of how i look so i fit in...like i said, hard to do being so short....but i don't think there is anything physically wrong with you...it sounds like you are just lashing out because of the way you were treated....my husband was bullied as well when he was in school...but he took the same route you did, he lashed out and finally beat the crap out of someone...and for whatever reason, it worked...he has never had a problem with anger or being bullied since....but i still don't recommend that path....talking to a councellor might be the best thing for you....they could help you come to terms with your anger and teach you how to talk your feelings out instead of doing damage to someone or something...i wish you the best of luck, and you'll have to update us on how things are going....
matty16
04-17-2003, 08:56 AM
I'm now feeling that you are starting to understand what i'm feeling and its making me feel more normal.Although there is a limit of advice i can get on here that can help me more so your be glad to here that i've just made an appointment with the local doctors.Now i have the words to decribe how i'm feeling instead of just saying i feel weird, he will understand me better
You lot have been great :) thanks
You lot have been great :) thanks
cecebaby
04-18-2003, 12:34 AM
Hey Matty,
There are many people out there to help you. I have teenagers. Just remember, you are in charge of how you want to feel, it is your choice. I hope the bullying has ended, I didn't read all your replies you got. I did read the one where ya said you feel better now and made an appt, that is the most difficult step. That is great! My daughter, 17 yr,suffered from depression for sooo long and the hardest part for her was to ask for help even though I knew she needed help I tryed everything to help her. It hurt me so bad knowing she was suffering inside and she would not take my advice. She is doing great now. Good luck and think positive and remember you are in charge of how you want to feel. Take care and don't forget to dance :dance
There are many people out there to help you. I have teenagers. Just remember, you are in charge of how you want to feel, it is your choice. I hope the bullying has ended, I didn't read all your replies you got. I did read the one where ya said you feel better now and made an appt, that is the most difficult step. That is great! My daughter, 17 yr,suffered from depression for sooo long and the hardest part for her was to ask for help even though I knew she needed help I tryed everything to help her. It hurt me so bad knowing she was suffering inside and she would not take my advice. She is doing great now. Good luck and think positive and remember you are in charge of how you want to feel. Take care and don't forget to dance :dance