matteo2828
05-22-2003, 03:00 PM
I've been through alot of crap in my life as i'm sure many other people have.Some of these i can list but it would take to long to discuss them on here.Heres a list of bad memories i have of my life as a kid
.Bullied though primary school and high school
.Not many freinds, loney, unwanted
.6 week lock up in a mental hospital when i was 13, they found nothing wrong with me though
.Abuse, both phyical and mental from perents, not much love from parents.
Only now when I¡¦m just starting my first year in college am I making some progress.I¡¦m making new friends and I¡¦m no longer being bullied.
That¡¦s not the end of it though.
I think I may have BPD.I¡¦ve researched on it on the net and the follwing things match my feelings
„h so completely in each mood, they have great difficulty conceptualizing, remembering what it's like to be in another mood
„h Impulsive behaviors that often embarrass the borderline later
„h chronic/major depression
„h helplessness
„h hopelessness
„h worthlessness
„h guilt
„h anger (including frequent expressions of anger)
„h anxiety
„h loneliness
„h boredom
„h emptiness
Cognition
„h odd thinking
„h unusual perceptions
„h nondelusional paranoia
intolerance of aloneness abandonment, engulfment, annihilation fears counterdependency stormy relationships manipulativeness
and one of the big ones¡K.Someone with BPD said, "I have a hard time figuring out my personality. I tend to be whomever I'm with
I have all these feeling plus aot more, shold I visit the doctor or are these feelings just normal for a teen?
.Bullied though primary school and high school
.Not many freinds, loney, unwanted
.6 week lock up in a mental hospital when i was 13, they found nothing wrong with me though
.Abuse, both phyical and mental from perents, not much love from parents.
Only now when I¡¦m just starting my first year in college am I making some progress.I¡¦m making new friends and I¡¦m no longer being bullied.
That¡¦s not the end of it though.
I think I may have BPD.I¡¦ve researched on it on the net and the follwing things match my feelings
„h so completely in each mood, they have great difficulty conceptualizing, remembering what it's like to be in another mood
„h Impulsive behaviors that often embarrass the borderline later
„h chronic/major depression
„h helplessness
„h hopelessness
„h worthlessness
„h guilt
„h anger (including frequent expressions of anger)
„h anxiety
„h loneliness
„h boredom
„h emptiness
Cognition
„h odd thinking
„h unusual perceptions
„h nondelusional paranoia
intolerance of aloneness abandonment, engulfment, annihilation fears counterdependency stormy relationships manipulativeness
and one of the big ones¡K.Someone with BPD said, "I have a hard time figuring out my personality. I tend to be whomever I'm with
I have all these feeling plus aot more, shold I visit the doctor or are these feelings just normal for a teen?
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ivy2002
05-23-2003, 11:18 AM
prolly best for you to go to a doc and talk to them about it
ivy2002
05-23-2003, 11:20 AM
prolly best for you to go to a doc and talk to them about it....they have all the cridentals and everything to give a formal diagnoses, but hope everything goes well for you, im entering my third year of college http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/dizzy.gif it hasnt been easy ! but im still here so i guess thats something
take care
take care
SoftSkies4
07-15-2003, 02:24 AM
I have BPD & they 1st diagnosed it as depression... but I would go to all the dumb treatments for depression and nothing helped. My shrink said that normal treatment doesn't work for BPD! It actually makes you worse! Because your thoughts are so messed up that you can't grasp what they're saying. For me, I always take one little peice of critism and dwell on it all day. I'll cry and cry over a dumb comment like "don't talk so loud". I worry about it all day. Or I think that no one really cares about me and to all the people at the hospital I am just another one of their dumb patients. Do you always think that no one really loves you and you have to prove yourself or you will be abandonded? That is kind of my issue w/ BPD. If you are feeling hopeless & stuff, that could just be depression. I dunno, write back, tell me if you think that way cuz I'm curious!!!! :round:
~Leslie~
~Leslie~