Hello,
Some plans are finally solidifying, although this makes me very anxious, depressed, etc. I go inpatient medical detox for 3 days and then upon discharge be put on suboxone, at least for the time being. I've been fighting and stuggling with this option, but I know I have to do something now to get off these pills. I go in on Monday 11/10 for 3 days. When the detox place said maybe more days...i said NO...why should I fully detox if I'm planning to get on suboxone?? I called the Dr. about this to make sure that this will be the limit of my stay.

someone was talking about how you no longer get "high" from pills and for the most part I would agree with that. Lately, it seems that no matter what I took, I didn't feel any kind of euphoria, just normal and calm, but not really high - which is why last night surprised me.

I just took 3 as usual, at some point in the evening, and 1/2 later I DID feel that floating feeling as if I was taking it for the 1st time~! This puzzled me. Was this a trick? body was playing on me. Anyhow, IF I felt that way every time, which I don't, I'm not even sure i could stop. I remembred how powerful that "feeling" was because it happened yesterday evening.

So - I feel as if I have 5 days left of these pills, and feeling very afraid of letting them go. what will replace them?

thanks for listening.
Brenda

Brenda, the suboxone will replace the pills. They should completely take your cravings for the pills away. If you still have cravings ask for a higher dose of suboxone. You can only go up so high, but most people seem tp be happy with a dose of about 16 milligrams. Good luck. You will be surprised how "good" you will feel on the suboxone.

kennyseven.

Hey Brenda--I know its hard for you right now with the pending detox and all the things that are going on in your head. You have come a long way since the first time I read one of your posts. Im happy that you have made a decesion and you are ready to move forward. It will be better than what you have been living in, from what you have shared with us all here. I wish you all the luck in the world and I hope you keep posting up until the day you go in and when you come home let us all know how it was for you. Take care and just enjoy your ability to KNOW this is all gonna be over with soon. No more thinking about whats right and how your going to do it, you ARE doing it and just let yourself go and don't worry....from what I've read and been told the Sub is going to be good for you...even though there are some things out there that still concerns me a little about the sub....I think its good and it has its benefits that a lot of us will use. Take care and stop being so hard on yourself...you are doing something about your problem and thats all that matters. AllyBrenda, the suboxone will replace the pills. They should completely take your cravings for the pills away. If you still have cravings ask for a higher dose of suboxone. You can only go up so high, but most people seem tp be happy with a dose of about 16 milligrams. Good luck. You will be surprised how "good" you will feel on the suboxone.

kennyseven.

brenda, you will replace them, the you that was hiding underneath the pills, im proud of your plans to go thru detox and start the sub program, that is wonderful and it probably your mind making you feel that feeling to try and stop you from your plans..my mind would be saying hey youve got 5 days before your clean so party up..it stinks the torture we can inflict upon oursleves..BE STRONG.. :D

[/SIZE]Brenda,

I hope everything goes well for you. I thnk you may be very scared, as well as you should be. I hope you do well w/the suboxone. I hope you are pleasantly surprised and everything goes as easy as possible. It is the anticipation, I believe. Once you are there, and you get on the subox, hopefully you will do as well as most of us did on the board. :D I am rooting for you. Believe me when I say, I felt the same thing when I was going to stop and get on the subox. AS a matter of fact, I postponed going to the Dr. because I was going to a party and then to the Bears game, only to find out that I felt BETTEr on the subox than on the vikes. By then, I was very crabby, nodding off and very fearful of runnning out. I could not afford it anymore. Thank goodness the insurance pays for the subox for me. Good luck! Also, Brenda, I have found out how nice it is to be able to plan ahead now. I am having Xmas. Before, while on the pills, I would have been hesitant to commit. "what if I did not have any pills" I would think. It is alot of stress off of me, and hopefully you willl find the same. Good luck Shell

why did they rapid detox you if you were going right on suboxone? If your detox was a danger then they would use subutex inpatient and see how your w/d were and give you suboxone at discharge. That was 3 days of wasted pain, you are quite right, ive been in a dozen treatment centers and ive never heard of that.